(((Mike))),
So many of us understand and we can relate all to well to what you are going through. It has been three years since I lost my husband, Mike (nice name ) It's still hard. I have good days , but I'm still getting blindsided by things that trigger that painful ache deep inside. Just know that you aren't alone and I've been told that the only way out of it is to go through it. It just takes time. You can come here and post any time, we care.
Hugs,
Sue