Janet, Im so sorry for what you are going through. Some people just sail through chemo with no problem. I was the poster child for horrible chemo trips. Your post brought back a lot of memories.
I hired people to come do things at the house that I couldnt and my family wouldnt. Nevermind why, there were some things I needed to have done to be ok. I dont know what your situation is but if you can afford to, you might want to consider that.
I also got my friends to come get me for short trips and take me somewhere. It was hard for me to ask peoople to do things because I am used to doing for others, but it was my survival.
I remember after 4 rounds, having end of life discussions with the oncologist. I could barely hold my head up I was so sick. I dont know if I could have had more than 4 rounds, but it was enough so I didnt have to make that decision.
Only you can decide your tolerence level. I just needed dark, cool and quiet so I could rest through the treatment. Yes it gets old sitting there but it may give you some additional months of life. I hope the results that are possible are enough to keep you pushing a little more. I know it is hard and depressing but we are here for you. Im so sorry this is so tough. Sometimes you need others to cheer you on when you are unable yourself, so heres your personal cheering section!!!!! Come back and let us know how you are doing.......at least once a week if you can. You are in my thoughts and prayers, Sandy
