To all those who lost a loved-one

[gpawelski]

When it comes time for us to find out all that happened to our loved-one and why, many times we may think our thoughts are our own, but more often than not, they emanate from our passed on loved-ones. Through these thoughts, the best parts of our creative character come forth. I could not have done my three years of cancer research without the guidence of Ann. She had inspired each and every avenue of my search for truth.

Whether you personally believe it or not, when we think of making contact with our passed on loved-ones, we first must approach it with the awareness that the world they are in (or the creative sense of a God), is not limited to an area in the clouds out of our reach. Rather, our loved-one is up, down, around and through us, they are intermingled within our own world.

"Our" angels are there, looking after us, until that day when we will be back with them.

As for "my" pain:

What thousands of grief-stricken mourners are asking, "when will the pain go away?"

The answer, "never".

No one can stand it, the pain is so intense, "it has never gone away for me". You learn to live with it, you get accustomed to it, you accommodate it.

I don't want to deny her memory.

Anger is a powerful emotion that drowns all others, and nobody progresses through grief without dealing with it.

God gave me Ann, and it was the viciousness of man that took her away. This is an adequate enough answer for me.

Go to the internet and check out everything on grief. When finished with reading and discussing, it is concluded that there is no cure.

Peace and Blessings to You.

My First Christmas in Heaven

I see the countless Christmas Trees, around the world below

with tiny lights like heaven's stars, reflecting on the snow.

The sight is so spectacular, please wipe away your tears,

for I am sharing Christmas, with Jesus Christ this year.

I hear the many Christmas songs, that people hold so dear,

the sounds of music can't compare, with the Christmas choir here.

I have no words to tell you, the joy their voices bring,

it's far beyond description, to hear the angels sing.

I know how much you miss me, I see the pain within your heart

but I am now so far away. We really aren't apart.

So be happy for me, loved ones. You know I hold you dear,

and be glad I'm spending Christmas, with Jesus Christ this year.

I send you each a special gift, from my heavenly home above.

I send you each a memory, of my undying love.

After all 'LOVE' is the gift, more precious than pure gold.

I was always most important, in the stories Jesus told.

Please love and keep each other, as my Father said to do,

for I can't count the blessings, or the love he has for you.

So, have a Merry Christmas and wipe away those tears,

for I am sharing Christmas, with Jesus Christ this year.

-Anonymous-

[kimblanchard]

Just wanted to say I am sorry for your pain. I see you are working on understanding. This is a part of the deal to come that I fear so much but like many things, I guess it just is and we learn to live with it. Love, Margaret

[jean]

Your post was very touching. I recently lost my 53 year old husband John on Sept. 30, 2004 after 24 years of marriage. I think, for me, it has gotten worse than the initial sorrow. The grief comes from soo deep and I just have to sob to let it out each day on my way home from work. I really can only take one day at a time. To think ahead makes me ill. I know I will never love anyone again so the future is lonely. I do agree with you that our loved ones are within us intermingled with our world. I do things to make John proud of me. I do not have a strong faith so I do not know where John is. I do know with such strong feelings that I would hope that there would have to be more than just this life. And, that he is still here around me and that I hope to meet him again. My daughter who is 14 is my savior right now just by being here with me. Thanks for sharing. Carolyn