-Cheryl- Posted December 31, 2004 Share Posted December 31, 2004 My Dear friends, I am trying hard to find hope and reason to live. It is a struggle, I must say. I do want to live, but quality of life is everything to me. My husband tries to be strong for me, but I can see his fear. His eyes are filled with tears, while telling me "we are going to beat this." He is mad at the world, the doctors, this disease. He feels doctors should lead Ins. Co.s around, and not vise-versa. I pray Dr. Joe that you are not hurt by any misguided anger. Jack's fear comes off sounding angry. Please know that it is not you he is upset with, it's these big Insurance Companies. We both appreciate your empathy and responses for those dealing with this dreadful disease. Most of our outcomes are grim. But there is always hope. Dr. Joe, thanks for caring about us. You have made a huge difference! I saw first hand how difficult bearing this horrible news can be on a doctor. My ER Doctor cried when he told me of my diagnosis. I ended up comforting him. He is a human being with emotions first and foremost. Dr. Joe, I thank you, and come back when you are able. Your loss would be tremendous to the cancer patients and caregivers on this site. Like you said, the news isn't always pleasant, but we need the truth. God protect you and keep you safe. Much Love, Cheryl Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Fay A. Posted December 31, 2004 Share Posted December 31, 2004 "Trying to find my fighting spirit" It's still there inside you, Cheryl. And you'll find it again. You really will. Faith is believing when there's no objective proof. I have faith in you, Cheryl. And I never, ever misplace my Faith. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
daggiesmom Posted January 1, 2005 Share Posted January 1, 2005 Cheryl, Never give up. Never. Everyone here is praying for you and is right with you, no matter what. 2005 is just around the corner and good things will happen for you. (((Cheryl & Jack))). Joanie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Don Wood Posted January 1, 2005 Share Posted January 1, 2005 The Spirit resides within us all. We just have to call it forth, as Fay says. You and Jack have been through so much in the last two years, for your young age. Know that you have the spirit of our support whenever you need it, both of you. Don Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
stand4hope Posted January 1, 2005 Share Posted January 1, 2005 Cheryl, How amazing and awesome that in the midst of all your pain and fear that you would take the time to say and do something so nice for someone else. May God overwhelm you with His love, Peggy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
J.C. Posted January 1, 2005 Share Posted January 1, 2005 Cheryl, We are all born with the fighting spirit of living, you have proved in the past that it is very strong in you, 2005 will bring it back to it's maximum. J.C. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ry Posted January 1, 2005 Share Posted January 1, 2005 It sounds like you have your New Year's resolution all picked out. You can do this Cheryl. Rochelle Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Haylee_38 Posted January 1, 2005 Share Posted January 1, 2005 Cheryl, Please do not give up hope. You can do this and we are all here for you to help support you along the way. {{{ Cheryl }}} Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
gail Posted January 1, 2005 Share Posted January 1, 2005 Cheryl, it has been a very rough time for you and one I can only imagine. I pray that your fighting spirit comes through. I myself always found comfort in listening to anything Bernie Siegel has on tape. Just hearing his voice calms me. In reading Jack's posts, yes, of course he is angry and fearful. It is a natural reaction to grieving any situation. We both know that any situation can put you in the grieving process. I love the quote from "The Pilot's Wife", when the pilot's wife learns of the plane crash---her grandmother tells her "You have to go through the pain to get to the other side" Your fighting spirit will surface. gail Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SDianneB Posted January 1, 2005 Share Posted January 1, 2005 Cheryl, to jump right into a cliche, it's darkest just before dawn. We all know here how these battles go -- we get to where we're feeling decent, then something comes and trips us up so we have to go back under the knife or the needle or the brain toaster, and we don't feel good any more, and have to fight our way back -- again and again. You have a terrific spirit. It's probably just a bit wounded right now, but it's still there. Hang in there. Di Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kimblanchard Posted January 1, 2005 Share Posted January 1, 2005 I sure am hoping you pull this together as you have many times before. Wishing you the very best. Margaret Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Elaine Posted January 1, 2005 Share Posted January 1, 2005 Cheryl I never once thought that Jack's response was a personal response to Dr. Joe. I am saddened that anyone, least of all Dr. Joe, might have construed it in that way. I saw it as Jack talking about an issue much larger than a response to Dr. Joe. I hope that if you feel up to it that you will check out the link I put on a thread I started. Jack, too. Dr. Joe, as well. It really helped me to see some things more clearly. I think managed care has also caused a great burden on Drs. Something has to be done and I don't know exactly what. I wish I did. If Dr. Joe left the board for good, (and I pray he has not) I don't think it was because of ONE thing. I am sure many, many other factors played a part. On a personal note, I hope you know that we are all standing beside you-- fighting for you, with you and because of you. No one knows what it is like to be in your shoes, or in the shoes of any of us with this dreaded disease--and different for each of us, too. Likewise, as we don't know what it is like to be in the shoes of primary caregivers. We are fighting side by side--and if one of us feels weak, then another of us will hold another up. In this together, always. elaine Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
paddy Posted January 1, 2005 Share Posted January 1, 2005 Hang in there Cheryl, as you can see you have so many people here who care about you. Dr. Joe if you do leave the board your generous and caring contributions will be sadly missed. Please give it a second thought, we need you here! Paddy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
slinaresholz Posted January 3, 2005 Share Posted January 3, 2005 God bless you Cheryl and I hope you can find the fighting spirit. Here's hoping you get the help you need. Prayers and hugs! Sharon Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ken f. Posted January 4, 2005 Share Posted January 4, 2005 hi cheryl, i haven't been looking here for a few days and was dismayed by your post. i'm sending you light and softness. when i first posted here i heard from you and was heartened. everytime i see your photo on the side, i am sure to read that post. this is because you have struck me as a winner. i would that you weren't presented with issues at present. if it's any use to you, when i first came to accept my situation, i resolved that a principal purpose of my life moving forwardi would show my children, grand children and loved ones how to live and how to die. benefiting them in the way i can will be the most important thing i can do. love, ken Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nbelostotsky Posted January 6, 2005 Share Posted January 6, 2005 dear Cheryl, It is a very difficult stuggle. We are all in this together. My mom, 53 yo, has failed Carbo.Taxol first line. It was producing such miserable side effects that she decided to try something else instead of other conventional treatments. We found out about the cancer clinic in Denmark, where she just returned from. She spent three weeks there. I am definitely not saying that is a cure, not at all. But we have seen some very promiding things happen to people after going there, you can read the testimonies on line, they are true! The doctor there has tremendous amount of experience with oncology patients and uses traditional as well as alternative therapies, that do not produce horrible adverse affects. My mom liked her stay there. She is now back, it is too early to say if the treatment is working, but she continues to self-inject every night different medications that she was given there, as well as takes supplements that were prescribed to her. Of course, you have to pay out-of-pocket for these treatments, but I think it is worth it! Let me know if you want more information about it. You can find them on the web by typing humlegaarden.com. Best of luck to all, N Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
pammie Posted January 11, 2005 Share Posted January 11, 2005 Cheryl, please don't give up. You are a human being with feelings and reactions like everyone. All of us have good times and bad. Keep fighting for the good days. Even in the dark moments there are blessings and funny things to think about. Stay in the saddle. pammie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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