Justakid Posted January 7, 2005 Share Posted January 7, 2005 When they told me what chemo would be like and then told me what radiation would be like, I thought....radiation will be easy....it's chemo I need to worry about. Yeah right. Radiation is what's causing all my troubles now. Racing heart, lymph node problems, esophagus problems, scars from radiation burns. No one told me about the aftermath of treatment and what it would be like. I know I'm not like most people and if there is a side affect or anything else....I will get it. Maybe that makes me special, maybe bacause of this I will be cured. Maybe it's a rite of passage or dues that must be paid. I used to say I was a bad person but wasn't bad enough to deserve this. Maybe it's like the doctor's said, I'm young and healthy, so because of my age and health it's knocking me on my butt a little harder to show me who's boss. I just wonder when it will all slow down and give me a breather! Just a few weeks to take a break! No pain, no sleeplessness, able to eat, no pain (oh did I say that twice). Yesterday I had my esophagus dialated, it had shrunk back down to where it was when I first started having problems. It was diolated to 45% with instructions to me that I would probably have to have this done every 4 weeks in hopes that it would hold. We don't know...but we may have to do this every few months for a very long time. Don't get me wrong, it's not the worst thing I could have done. It's a pain in the *ss being put to sleep and having something stuck down your throat (which already hurts) and going through this repeatedly. I guess it's just one more present that I have been given from the cancer fairy. Has anyone or is anyone else going through this esophagus problem like me? Am I all alone in this? Wish there was a book with every single thing that could happen to you during treatment and an explanation! Guess it's back to soft foods tonight, not the steak that I had planned! Thanks for listening! Till the next time that the "probe" and I meet again, here's to February, the next procredure, and big dreams of steaks in my future. Oh I long for the days when I swallow and the food just slides down to my stomach without stopping and waiting for a kick! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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