randired Posted January 9, 2005 Share Posted January 9, 2005 I pop in here every so often. i do read but dont post much due to not having much time, I hope you all understand. First of all, my house has been finished and we moved back in. We are slowly unpacking, but its getting there. Its hard to do with an 11 month old chasing you everywhere and getting into everything. I enjoy every moment with him though. The only thing is that everytime we smell a fireplace or anything resembling 'burning' we need to check the house to see if its burning down again. UGH! i hope we can relax about it soon, it will take time. Mom has been one big rollercoaster. She was doing horrible up until her gamma knife surgery. she couldnt walk, use her left side...she was bad..then after gamme knife, she was going to the store to buy birthday and hanuka gifts, (of course only in the wee hours when no one would see her) She3 would still refuse to do anything like go see a movie, go to dinner at a quaint resturaunt. She got her 3rd round of chemo 3 weeks ago and she has been horrible ever since. her hemeglobin is so low the docs want to give her a transfusion, she again, wont see anyone and wont talk to anyone, she sleeps all day, refuses to eat anything of substance. She tells us that she is going to die tomorrow and refuses to take anything for any of her pain. headaches, dizzyness, nausea, whatever. She is also getting nastier and nastier. When she was first diagnosed she calmed down with her criticisims but it just gets worse and worse. Its hard to support her when she practically tells you that you are a horrible daughter, or that every decision you have made was wrong. But I still bring my son over to her every day and try to make that day better than the day before. I just need a hug. Thanks for listening and being there, even if it is just reading. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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