Addie Posted February 24, 2005 Share Posted February 24, 2005 And it's not been bad at all. It must be the Zometa that David C is also getting that is causing him pain and discomfort...because I've had NO ill effects at all from the Topotecan. Today is the last infusion of this cycle and tomorrow morning I get the port installed while - they said - my counts are still good. After the procedure, I'll also get a Neulasta shot. Might as well stick me again while I'm down, eh? I am visualizing the Topotecan working...at least twice daily, and one of those times during chemo. For just a few moments....I "see" little hardhatted cocktail waitresses serving the chemo drinks to the cancer cells. They toss them back, get little +'s for eyes....and keel over dead on the floor, only to be washed right out of my system with all this water I drink....leaving behind only pink, healthy looking liver and pancreas tissue!! Yellow hard hats, some of you might remember, were my symbol for this fight from the beginning. Anyway, mentally I'm WAY better as I'm doing something....fighting with chemo and imagery and optimism. It lives on me much better than the fear and angst. But this is a reality check too about this disease, so there are some things I will be taking care of over the coming weeks because if I DON'T....a lot of family history is lost. I AM the senior generation. When I go...if they don't know it....there is no one else to ask, re: my family of origin's history. And if "some people" don't do a couple of things the way I want them done after I'm gone, then dangit....I'm going to be spending part of my eternity haunting them instead of having a good time on the other side, you know? So I have a few instructions to write out as well! So...plans are ahead to take care of some business...but otherwise life goes on. Can't say I'm taking up the recorder like Fay or stretching out into any other brand new directions (yet)....but I continue to do the things I love to do and have been doing! My crafts, reading, staying in contact with friends, seeing my men (hubby and sons) as much as possible. I keep muttering to myself....TOPOTECAN WORKS! Two doctors and a nurse have said that exact two-word phrase to me. From their lips to God's ears.....eh, Dave and Karen? I'll update you guys from time to time...but for now, all goes well and I know there are others here who cannot quite say the same. If I'm not around as much...well, I know you understand how it is in tx and with some "unfinished business" to take care of re: family stuff. But I'm here in thoughts much more often and wishing everyone the very best, always. If you've got an extra good thought or two left over to send my way - I am always grateful for it! Thanks!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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