niececola Posted March 8, 2005 Share Posted March 8, 2005 Hi, My mom's 61st birthday would have been tomorrow. The past few weeks have been particularly tough, I am working a lot of hours and I have started to realize that my preoccupation with other things has prevented me from thinking about the loss of my mom. But just when I start to worry that I am in denial, the truth sneaks up and leaves me in puddles. So, I am dreading tomorrow, because I still can not believe she is not here. I don't care right now that she is no longer suffering, because we are and I am angry. All my mom wanted to do was make it past 61 years old, the age her mom died, and she didn't and that is so unfair, unfair for her, unfair for us and all those that loved her. And I am supposed to believe that God needed another angel and he now has my mom? She suffered her whole life and had finally found some peace, only to be stuck down with LC and die 11 months later? Having a very hard time right now understanding God's big plan in all of this. So, I will try once again to think of my blessings, but right now they are hard to come up with. I am happy for my Dad and brother and LCSC, but right now all I want is my mom. Denise Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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