Kel M Posted April 26, 2005 Share Posted April 26, 2005 Hello everyone, Times have been tough for a lot of people on this board lately, and I just wanted to take the time to check in and say hello. Please forgive the rambling post. As you might recall from my last post, my Mom had to be flown back to Canada from Florida due to being in great pain. It now appears that there has been progression of the cancer in her lung (or lungs) and possibly into her bones. She is also suffering from a fairly rare complication known as paraneoplastic syndrome (brain degeneration) for which there is no effective treatment. Basically, the body generated antibodies to fight the cancer cells and in her case, they attacked her good cells too. It's a condition that can result in tremors, balance problems, dizziness, memory loss, confusion, etc... The narcotics they were giving her didn't seem to help the bone pain and so there were many upsetting moments for Mom and for us as we were watching her suffer. During one particularly difficult moment, with her face twisted in pain, eyes shut and tears running down her face, Mom reached over to me and said: "Let them get the pain under control and I'll be ready to fight again." She took my breath away with those words and showed me the meaning of courage in the face of great adversity. To make a long story short, they finally managed to control most of the pain this week and she was to have a scan to rule in or out bone involvement today. Last night, as Mom was standing up (probably to get in and out of her wheelchair), she lost her balance and fell over injuring herself. So on top of the disease and side effects including a blood clot in the lung, she may now have a broken hip. She's been heavily sedated since the fall, but was alert enough to answer my phone call and tell me she loved me this morning. I'm as scared as I've ever been today. I pray that Mom doesn't have a broken hip and that she can bounce back from this setback like she has so many times before. I pray that she doesn't suffer anymore - that she is comfortable. I pray for a miracle - if that is what God has planned for us. I pray for all of you - for as much as our experiences are our own - unique if you will - we are all bound by this beast we call cancer. Kel "Courage is the price that life exacts for granting peace." - Amelia Earhart Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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