louise Posted July 18, 2003 Share Posted July 18, 2003 I posted once in the introduction area. My s/o was diagnosed with sclc 5/1/03 with mets to liver, and refused to allow the onc md to tell him if it had spread any further and flat out looked at me and said, this is no problem, He's finished his 3rd round of vp16 and platinol, gained the 20 lbs he'd lost prior to starting his chemo, his blood work is still near normal, he's had no nausea or vomiting. A few days of sore mouth and some mood stuff from too abrupt of a stop of the decadron which is going to be changed starting this next round. He is a little tired but not too tired to attend a party and help out to what amounted to nearly 20 hours, .. ANYWAYY...... i'm a bundle of nerves.... still.. he had his first scan since diagnosis last week. we were pretty positive the chemo was doing something since we figured he would be a lot sicker if it wasn't and the doctor said the same. his tumor is /was fist sized and up against the trachea, he saw the oncologist for the result of the cat scan yesterday and she said the tumor is almost gone.. she said she's amazed at how well he's responded to the treatment....aand she may scan sooner than she planned to this next time....and he may not need as many treatments as she thought either... naturally we were happy, my s/o just seemed to be "i told ya' (although he was teary eyed at first) but i still feel like somebody has their hands on that carpet ready to rip it out from under us. the old "if it's too good to be true it probably is" thing... but i won't tell him that because he won't even let me use words like "if"... it's when this cancer is gone... which of course i think is his right and probably what's making his attitude so strong and positive. i think i'm going nuts the thing is, the only other things that could have been better i suppose at that appointment were that the cancer was gone, or they had his cat scan mixed up with someone elses initially and he never had cancer in the first place, which we know won't happen. he told me i have to relax.... i realize i probably won't ever really be able to do that totally again, ask me to do that in 20 years maybe... see what life is like then. because life won't ever really be the same, these terms came into our vocabulary that weren't there in april, tense and scary things are happening and have happened and will continue... today i'll just enjoy dinner with him and look at those big doe eyes... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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