berisa Posted September 27, 2005 Share Posted September 27, 2005 Today when I went to see doctor near my home, in the clinic I saw a grandmum & a son with a baby, whom I guess its the grandchild of the grandmum, the grandmum loves the baby very much, always kiss him, always play with him. The son just sat next to them and sometimes talked to his mum but always looking at his baby. I suddenly thought of dad. I was so envy them at that moment, dad had been expecting the day that he can take care of his grandchildren, this was what he's longing for, but it never happened to him and me. I could be the son, he could be the grandmum.....I then teared. When I walked back to home after seeing the doctor, some scenes - in hospital, in my home after diagnosis talking about his childhood, falling into sleep uncontrollably bcoz of the meds, i helped him walking and the conversation, he was crying while talking to sister over the phone on the bed in Hospital that first being informed of the brain mets, dad's tearing while he heard of mum's crying in the toilet inside the private room in hospital. It makes me so sad..... I wish dad could be here, that's my regret, my heartache. It's been almost 17 months, I still can't hold my tears....I prayed to God that let Dad be happy now, let him having the best life now. Amen. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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