cindi o'h Posted October 1, 2005 Share Posted October 1, 2005 Okay, Fans. Here's the deal. As you know, I had surgery for a recurrent pleural effusion the end of Aug. It turned out to be a chylothorax. The surgeon did a VATS procedure and put some talc in their to glue it shut. Last week I went into the ER because I was having a hard time breathing. Turned out to be asthma flare. Steroids and neb fixed me up okay. Not good. Just okay. While I was there, the doc ordered a portable chest xray. I looked at the film, and it didn't look like my lung. I had just had a chest xray the week before with my surgeon and everything was fine. What I saw on the film looked like a tumor at the apex of my right lung. Couldn't be. No way! The doc said that maybe the round nurses' call button got in the way when the film was exposed. I agreed. Could not be something so huge and so dense to appear. I got some reports in the mail today from my hospital stay a month ago. I read the daily radiology reports from my daily chest xrays. I didn't like everything that they had to say. So. I decided to get on it and get a re xray today. I saw the films again. The "mass" is much bigger and even denser than it was last week. It was about 2cm last week. Today, maybe 3to4cm. Course, they won't let you talk to the radiologist. And the surgeon probably won't call until he gets the film in front of his face. (which I don't blame him). I know for a fact that the radiologist sent off a verbal report to the surgeon, but I really won't expect to hear from him until the courrier has put it in his hands. Until then, I am somewhat elevated in anxiety. I know that my anxiety level could be worse. On a scale of 1 to 10, I am giving it a solid 3!!! How 'bout that??? Why do these things happen on Friday afternoons? But, I will bet a doughnut, a chocolate covered doughnut with a lite, that he will see it tomorrow and call me even though it is Saturday! (that's the way he is). So. J.C.'s got some candles burning for me. And prayers are being said. I am still SOB, and I am hoping that this is connected with the chylothorax. Thanks for listening! (Again) Cindi o'h Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kimblanchard Posted October 1, 2005 Share Posted October 1, 2005 Cindi, Praying for a good report! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Calintay Posted October 1, 2005 Share Posted October 1, 2005 Prayers for a good report! Hopefully he will contact you tom. so your anxiety can go down Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
gail p-m Posted October 1, 2005 Share Posted October 1, 2005 Oh Cindi!! We all know that Friday afternoon iis the most worst time to get "news" and to be left hanging. That weekend can seem awfully long. I think you should open your pub, have a good "stiff" one, watch several videos and try to enjoy the weekend the best you can. I'll add my prayers to the many others that I'm sure are coming for a good report. gail p-m Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jang Posted October 1, 2005 Share Posted October 1, 2005 Cindi - I'm praying you get only good news, and hopefully tomorrow! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LynneH Posted October 1, 2005 Share Posted October 1, 2005 Cindi, this is not the wait-to-hear news you need on a Friday afternoon. If there is a silver lining, your rapport with your doctors is so good that I know they will jump on it and get the confusion figured out. In the meantime, please try to get some rest and don't tax your SOB. I'm really impressed with your '3'. You are a true champion. Take care, Lynne Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Connie B Posted October 1, 2005 Share Posted October 1, 2005 Cindi, I really am very sorry to hear this news. You have battled long and hard for some time now. I guess when you hear people say, TGIF your not impressed???? Hang tough, a little while more!!!!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Treebywater Posted October 1, 2005 Share Posted October 1, 2005 I'm here waiting with you and hoping and praying it's nothing. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Don Wood Posted October 1, 2005 Share Posted October 1, 2005 Prayers comin'. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Patkid Posted October 1, 2005 Share Posted October 1, 2005 Faithful prayers, friend. lots of them. Love P Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tnmynatt Posted October 1, 2005 Share Posted October 1, 2005 Cindi, Praying that it's an infection or something else that's easily treated. Take care. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kasey Posted October 1, 2005 Share Posted October 1, 2005 Oh my gosh, Cindi, My anxiety level is way higher than a 3, believe me! This is just terrible, terrible news. Now it is the weekend and who knows if you will hear anything before Monday. This just cannot be! All I can do is offer many more prayers and hope that knowing we are out here worrying with and for you will offer some comfort. Did you have ANY idea something like this was going on? How does something just APPEAR like that? Oh, I have so many questions..... PLASE PM for any additional support, Cindi. Love and prayers, Kasey Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SBeth Posted October 1, 2005 Share Posted October 1, 2005 Prayers for you, prayers for you! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
shineladysue Posted October 1, 2005 Share Posted October 1, 2005 Cindi, Prayers coming , lots of them. Why does it always happen on the weekend? Something needs to be done about the helplessness we feel when weekends roll around. Praying he calls you tomorrow with encouraging news. Heading over to the pub to just sit and wait with you. Actually , I'm outside the door and I think I already see Kasey sitting in there. Don't forget we are here for you Cindi. Love and Prayers, Sue Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cindi o'h Posted October 1, 2005 Author Share Posted October 1, 2005 oh jeez... I forgot all about the pub!!! wow! Okay, I will have a stiffy. Haven't had one of those in awhile Say, did any of ya'll watch 3 wishes on NBC tonight??? Had me grinning from ear to ear and sobbing one minute to the next. Just call me "puddles". I KNOW my surgeon will call me tomorrow. That is the way he is. That is in his gut philosophy. He cares. Cindi o'h Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MilliBr1 Posted October 1, 2005 Share Posted October 1, 2005 Cindi you are in my prayers. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MurielK Posted October 1, 2005 Share Posted October 1, 2005 Oh Cindi, I'm so sorry that you even have to go through the wait stage with this. Prayers that this turns out ok. Muriel K Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
stand4hope Posted October 1, 2005 Share Posted October 1, 2005 Hi Cindi, I'm so upset to read this. I do hope you're right and that he will call you tomorrow. To me, the hardest part about this disease, or probably any disease that is life-threatening, is the "not knowing". I quickly learned that even if the news is bad, after a day or two of numbness, we were quickly off to the plan of attack and things always looked brighter. But, the time not knowing, at least to me, was pure torture. The interesting part is that it's torture for all of us, too. It seems that when one of our friends here is going through this waiting and not knowing time, we become anxious as well. I pray you know something soon. All my love, Peggy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nushka Posted October 1, 2005 Share Posted October 1, 2005 Cindi, You say a 3? You are one tough cookie then. Mine is at least a 4 and I am just hearing about it from you. You are always in my prayers but I will add some additional prayers just for you. I wish I had the kind of relationship with my oncologist that you do with yours. Will be looking for your post tomorrow after you hear from him. Best of luck on the phone call. Nina Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kimblanchard Posted October 1, 2005 Share Posted October 1, 2005 Well Cindi, I think it is about time to get off the Roller Coaster, you've had enough fun. I am truely praying and hoping for the best results. I am sure it is just another false alarm, of which you've had your share. Stay positive!!!! luv jim Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bunny Posted October 1, 2005 Share Posted October 1, 2005 cindi, here it is, tomorrow. and I am praying you get an answer today, that it's a 'good' answer, and for your continued strength and good attitude in this fight. xoxo amie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ry Posted October 1, 2005 Share Posted October 1, 2005 Hang in there Cindi...wishing you a bad film or something other than a mass. Now back to the pub... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Calintay Posted October 1, 2005 Share Posted October 1, 2005 Please let us know if you hear today. Prayers being said for you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Leslie221 Posted October 1, 2005 Share Posted October 1, 2005 (((Cindi))) I hope the doctor calls you today and has good news. I admire your ability to get a grip on the anxiety - you know how people say "you're your own worst enemy?" Well, you're your own best friend. Keep taking good care of yourself, have another stiff one, share some more jokes, and put your ear to the window. Hear that mumbling sound? That's all of us praying and asking good things for you! No one can serpentine like you, Cindi! Love, Leslie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ellen B. Posted October 1, 2005 Share Posted October 1, 2005 Cindi, Lots of prayers coming! Did the surgeon call allready? Can't you call him if he doesn't call you? Those weekends! I sometimes wish we could skip them! Ellen. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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