Mom - bad news and very scared

[hollyanne]

I just don't understand how all of this happens so fast. Three days ago my mom was doing well after chemo (fatigued, but o.k.) Last night she lost control of her right side. By this morning she still had no control and terrible pain had started in her neck again.

Her oncologist came over this a.m. (bless his heart) and said it looks like one of three things: new neck tumor causing spinal cord compression, old tumor which has caused compression or brain mets. If it is an old spot, the only option would be neck surgery which he doesn't believe she could survive, and that there are no treatment options (and that she would not have long as paralysis would set it, etc.) We have to get her down to the center tomorrow for brain/neck scans. With pain and lack of movement, I can't imagine how we would get her down there for 10-12X radiation treatements....could they put her in the hospital and do this???

They gave her a massive dose of steroids today in hopes of getting some strength back to the side...it doesn't appear to be doing much.

For the first time, she is really down. I am supposed to be induced tomorrow or Tuesday with her first grandchild...I never thought it would be like this. I am heartbroken, devastated and terrified all at once.

Please keep us in your prayers...I don't even know what to pray for at this point; it seemed as if we were making so much progress.

Thanks,

Holly

[dadstimeon]

Very sorry to hear that about your mom Holly. Prayers for the best. Rich

[Donna]

Holly..I will pray for your mom, you and the new Little Angel..Try to be strong, even though it is not easy at times..Everyone here is wonderful and very compassionate..Please keep us posted..

God Bless you and your family...

Donna K.

[cindi o'h]

oh Holly,

This is too much for anyone. I will pray to ask that you will all be able to get through every one of these hurdles. And also that His Will be done.

I am sure that she could be hospitalized if it comes down to it.

Cindi o'h

[Ry]

Oh geez Holly...I can't imagine going through this when you on the verge of welcoming a baby. She should be able to be transported by ambulance (in your condition you can't really lift or support her) and I would think they could admit her--ask the onc.

[NancyT]

Dear Holly,

I am so sorry that your Mom is not doing well but hopefully things will turn around. Wishing the birth of your beautiful baby goes well, sending many prayers for you both!!

NancyT

[Nushka]

Holly,

I know you must be terrified. Praying that treatment for your mother can be found that is doable in the near future. Meanwhile, I hope that your baby arrives in great health. You have alot on your plate at the moment. Let us know how we can help.

Nina

[Kasey]

((((Holly)))),

My heart is just broken hearing this news. This time should be so 'perfect' for you and your Mom. Some day, I guess, we may finally get the answer to why these things happen to such wonderful folks. Right now.... .

Hoping and praying for you both and that new little girl on the way.

Kasey

[jdjenkins]

I'm so sorry that this all has to be happening to you right now. Just take one minute at a time, and remember "If the Lord brings you to it, he will bring you through it." Give that new baby girl a hug and a kiss from all of us here. We will be praying for you and your Mom.

Denise

[MilliBr1]

(((Holly))) I will keep you, your mom and your baby in my prayers.

[J.C.]

Holly,

Sorry to read your post,

prayers are there for you, the baby and your Mom.

special candle lit for all of you.

Tender hugs

Jackie

[mamasbabygirl]

Oh geez, Holly. Please try to breathe!! This is just way too much for you guys right now. It will work out, always does. Just breathe through it all.

[luvmydog2]

Sorry to hear about your mother. That is what makes this disease so strange and bad. As Norme used to say, it is like a big roller coaster. Will be praying for your mother.

[Ladyintheglen]

((((((((((Holly))))))))))

My prayers are with you and your family. Always remember that when you can't seem to take a step forward..stand still and breathe. Darling, in your shoes that's about all the strength I would be able to muster. Breathe, honey, just breathe. Know that we all share your tears.

Love,

Cheryl

[dreamxpert]

Oh Holly,

I can feel your pain through your words and wish there was some way to help. Mothers are our "rocks" and the possibility of losing yours, just as your becoming one, must seem like being cast adrift in a stormy sea. Whatever comes, please try to remember that you will only give birth to your first child this one and only time, and your Mom's first wish would be for you to experience the total joy and happiness that this same miricle brought her when you were born. It's ok to feel love, even when your heart is breaking.

Lori B

[Leslie221]

Holly,

No words. Just can't imagine what you are going through. Hoping there are people nearby who can help you through this giant whirlpool of emotion and decisions and activity. Grab a strong hand and hold on tight. You will come up for air.

Sending all caring thoughts and strength to you and your mom.

Leslie

[eppie]

Calling all arms to hug and hold Holleyanne in safety and hope today tomorrow and the day after. Extra arms for the baby too. Oh Hollyanne. We'll get through this and all the rest too. Please know you are in my prayers.

Hugs for everyone. Take time for yourself and cherish the special moment that bringing a new child into this old fabulous world needs. look deeply into this new child's eyes and thank her for being so brave and coming right now.

Much love,

Eppie

[Don M]

Holly: you and your mom have my prayers

Don M

[Fall54]

Dear Holly,

I am so sorry this is all happening just as you are ready to have you're first baby. Not that any time is a good time but this is the worst.

You were given some good advice though and do remember this is the only time you will have you're first baby and Mom would want you to be happy and experience all there is to becoming a new Mom. God will see you through this Holly. You are all in my prayers.

God Bless,

Jane

[hopeandstrength]

Just offering more good thoughts and prayers for your mama. I'm so very sorry. This should only be a time of joy for you. Take care.

Cathy

[Don Wood]

Prayers comin'.

[shadazed]

So sorry to hear about your mom...Life can be so cruel and unjust at times...I am sure your mom will be there to invite the newest addition into her family she has waited this long .

I hope everything goes well for you tomorrow as well, what a beautiful christmas present...cherish the moments as you already know all to well

Will be praying for you and your family with great blessings and happy endings

shari

[RandyW]

AM Going to say an extra special prayer for your Family To night. Good Luck witheverything that is going on

[nancy c]

I'm so sorry to hear your news..you have too much on your plate right now. God bless you. Nancy C

[bunny]

hollyanne, honey, I just came to this somehow. by now I hope and pray your mom has some comfort and you have a beautiful, healthy baby in your arms. we're here, sending love to all of you.

xoxo

amie