jdjenkins Posted March 7, 2006 Share Posted March 7, 2006 It was two months ago today that my Dad left this world. Two months ago I held him as he passed on. I can not believe how much I miss him. Everything I do or see reminds me of my Dad. I want so much to be able to touch him one more time. I want to hear his voice and see his smile. I know he is at peace now, but I'm not anywhere close to being at peace. My Mom is having such a hard time. They were together for 44 years and she is completely lost without him. I never realized how much she depended on him. He was the center of her life. I try to help by keeping her busy as much as I can, but when I can't be with her I feel so guilty. I can not stand the idea of her sitting home alone so very sad. We are planning a trip to Florida soon. We are going back to the place we stayed with my parents for so many years. We made so many wonderful memories there. My Mom is going with us. We will be in Florida on what would have been Dad's 70th birthday. I know it will be a very hard day for all of us. The kids will let balloons go from my Dad's favorite spot on the beach. It is so hard to believe he will not be with us on that beach. No one can ever be prepared for this kind of a loss. It is so much harder than I ever thought it would be. The pain seems to be getting worse the longer he is gone. I'm so tired of being sad and missing him. I'm so worried about my Mom and don't know what to do to help her. I don't know if I have the strength to help her. Life is so very very hard. Denise Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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