ztweb Posted April 18, 2006 Share Posted April 18, 2006 OK...this all weighs so heavy on my heart! My dad just finished his second round of chemo (of 4-6 total), and again, it is like it is his fear of getting sick that is breaking him, not actually being sick, or the chemo itself. Dad has always been the active one, and I don't want to be selfish, and wish him active again for me, by any means. But, I want to feel like he is atleast somewhat of his old self. I want to support him, no matter what, but I want to encourage him to use his body, release the fear, and live whatever it is he has left. Dad is a statistic himself. His sclc was dx really early, before any mets, and his tumor had obviously shrunk from the first chemo session...we saw it on the xray. Things are looking great for him. We all have so much hope, a strong faith, and the will to beat this cr#$ He was so hopeful when he left the clinic. But...when nighttime comes, and he has to go to bed, taking pretzels with him to keep something in his tummy during the night, I think the fear is what gets him down. He is coming up on his "low" for blood counts, and that in itself makes him fearful. Are there any signs of when he is actually low? I try to keep the grandkids (walking germs I call them!!) away during the low but since we don't know exactly when that is, how can I keep him safe???I am afraid to death that he will get sick, because that is his biggest fear. I know I am not the one with cancer, so it may not be fair for me to think this way, but I just want him to live everything he has rather than walk on eggshells...does this make sense? Any suggestions? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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