Connie22 Posted August 1, 2006 Share Posted August 1, 2006 It has been 2 months ago today that I lost my mother to this horrible beast!!! I miss her soooo much that words cannot describe. We had a family reunion over the weekend (my mom's side) and I thought about not going, but they all encouraged me to attend. It was a miserable time. I was doing better before I went. People can just say and do the wrong things, sometimes I wonder if they actually intend to do them. Mom and I were best friends and talked about everything, so when it went way bad, all I could think about was I want to talk to my Mom. Then I felt like a huge baby wanting my mommy!!! Now I am no longer talking to 2 of her sisters because they were just obnoxious and saying stupid things. I let everyone know that I am seperating myself from the family for awhile, I need my space and time to heal. My SF went along, and he was the best, way better than I would ever think that he could have been. My 2 girls that are 23 and 20, miss their granny sooo much, also had a very hard weekend. It was so hard to not say anything, but of course being the peacemaker, I didn't want to start anything. So now I am feeling the effects and wondering why they did and said some of the things that they did. I understand that a couple of the uncles and aunts did say some things to the other 2 sisters, so now they are ticked off at me. How stupid!! I can just hear my mom telling me to stay away that I don't need people like that in my life. So that is what I am going to do. Sorry for the negative post, I just needed some place to vent. Some people don't understand the closeness and the bond that mom and I shared. We went and did everything together. I miss her sooooo much. Today I just need to call her and talk to her. I took the day off of work, because the pain is so much. I just want this day over!!!! Thanks for letting me vent!!! Connie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mamasbabygirl Posted August 1, 2006 Share Posted August 1, 2006 OH, Connie. I am glad that you took a mental break day away from work. Those can help so much. Just spend your day taking care of yourself, even if that means lying in bed all day crying. It feels so good to get it out. (((CONNIE))) from KY... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ma's kid Posted August 1, 2006 Share Posted August 1, 2006 (((((Connie)))))) You just go ahead and vent all ya want! (it helps) This may sound crazy but it always helps me to write to my dad whenever I need/want to talk to him...over the yrs, since his passing there have been many letters. Hang in there and do be good to yourself Libby Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cindy0519 Posted August 2, 2006 Share Posted August 2, 2006 So very, very hard.... I completely understand! Try to allow yourselve to just cry, grieve and remember all the special moments with your mom. Be kind to yourself.. its ok to feel sad and overwhelmed by it all! Cindy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Connie22 Posted August 3, 2006 Author Share Posted August 3, 2006 Thanks guys for the nice words. I did survive the day from hell. I did write mom a letter and I have to say it really does make one feel better. Thanks for the suggestion. Hugs and prayers Connie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MsC1210 Posted August 3, 2006 Share Posted August 3, 2006 Connie, I did not see this post earlier, but am glad you got through the day. Just wanted to let you know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Chris Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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