bunny Posted September 3, 2006 Share Posted September 3, 2006 it's like I want to pretend that the LC never happened, even as I am so proud of Suki and what she lived through. I never come here any more, and this place and EVERYone here is ALWAYS on my mind. I am doing the advocacy work I wanted to, but it's almost like I wish the cancer could be out of sight, out of mind. which is baloney on so many levels: Suki is still on Tarceva, she's on a six month scan schedule and even though she's NED, it's never really gone, is it!? and I feel so selfish, because I feel strongly that I should be here for people who come in scared and confused as I was, but I get this weird sick feeling when I come back to the site. I lurk, but haven't been on here regularly since probably March or April. so now, in addition to everything else, I feel like an *ss because I feel like I've let you down, and all the people who've come on since I sort of disappeared. is this normal, or am I just selfish? I mean, there's plenty of other stuff happening: Dave's surgery went well but his recovery has been longer and slower than we thought it would be. I had my own medical adventures in June and July but am fine now. I do have one very amazing thing to tell you all, but, again, I feel a little embarassed, since I've been gone so long - Suki and I got to do one of the first things I was afriad we never would when she was diagnosed again last year: on Friday, we shopped for my wedding dress. no matter how flaky I get, you are always always always in my heart, LCSCers. Amie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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