SC7454 Posted October 16, 2006 Share Posted October 16, 2006 Well, I've told everyone the whole sorted story...so I won't go into it again. Since I last posted, she's gone completely numb from her waist down and lifting her has become unbelievably hard by myself. We can't make it to the bathroom in time, most of the time. Since it's just myself and her boyfriend, we take turns on who is here. I'm so scared, and she still refuses hospice. She won't even talk to me about it. So, my husband tried to talk to her about it, and she got frustrated and yelled, "Just give me till Sunday to make a decision." The thing is, is that she won't make it. So, my husband said, "Well, we need to get someone in here to talk to you from hospice because she (being me) can't handle all this, and she feels badly because she knows she isn't giving you the best medical care she should be. We want you to be as comfortable as you possibly can, and being in an uncomfortable bed or couch isn't the best we can do." I told her that I wasn't trying to get out of anything, that I would still be here as much as I have been, and that I simply need someone to teach me what I don't know. She told us to get out. We couldn't even get into other stuff with her because she won't let us talk. She told me she hates me and that I'm trying to kill her. Well, hospice is coming here tomorrow at noon and I'm so afraid she's going to flip out. She told me this morning that she's not going to give up, and I told her I didn't want her to, but she said that that's what I'm doing. I'm so overwhelmed and I feel like I can't breathe. What if she says no when they are here? What am I going to do? I have Power of Attorney, but that doesn't apply if she's still awake and can make decisions. This is horrible, she can't even lift herself up to a sitting position without me and I know she's in so much pain. She won't even let me get her better pain meds, because she starts screaming that she wants to be awake. I feel like I can't keep this up and I don't know what to do. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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