SSF Posted November 1, 2006 Share Posted November 1, 2006 Hi all, I haven't posted for a long time, and am now trying to catch up. I'm so sick of this disease controlling our life, and trying to pretend that we have a "normal" life, when we don't. I feel helpless when Tim is overly quiet or thoughtful, and when I ask him what's up, he replys that he's thinking about whether he's going to live or die, and that I don't know what it's like. Well, he's right, I don't, and I also don't know how to help or make it better and that's tearing me apart. I'm always the fixer, and I can't fix this!!!!!! And I try to stay strong, but I think about the potential future, and raising 2 boys on my own, plus working in a job that requires a lot of travel, and holding down the household, and it all becomes so overwhelming! so, anyway, all this emotion comes on the eve before our appointment with the oncologist tomorrow, where we get Tim's latest PET scans, and I have to tell you all that I am nervous and scared, as usual. I meant this to be a post asking for prayers and positive thoughts for good news tomorrow, but ended up spilling my emotions instead. Thanks for listening, bless you all. Sandra Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ginnyde Posted November 1, 2006 Share Posted November 1, 2006 Sandra, one of the best things about this site is that it is a place to vent, cry, scream, laugh ....... I will say a prayer that the shrinkage continues or better yet that your dear husband is NED. Keep us posted. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
trish2418 Posted November 1, 2006 Share Posted November 1, 2006 Lots of prayers that you get nothing but good news tomorrow. Hang in there. Trish Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sharonjo Posted November 1, 2006 Share Posted November 1, 2006 Sandra, I am praying for nothing but good news from your husband's scans. Hang in there and stay strong! God Bless, Sharon Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MEA Posted November 2, 2006 Share Posted November 2, 2006 Waiting for the results is so hard...for me, it's when all the "what ifs" rears it ugly head. Prayers for good results. Mary Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dazy Posted November 2, 2006 Share Posted November 2, 2006 Just adding my prayers that, by now, you have received some positive news. Hang in there! Yours in HOPE! Stacey Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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