SBeth Posted December 8, 2006 Share Posted December 8, 2006 Well, I wish I could say that this past year has gone quickly, but it hasn't. It's almost impossible for me to believe that I've made it thru one year; made it thru all those "firsts", but I have. The year has been packed with so many lonely and sad days, but with many happy ones as well. I've had five dreams about Bill since his death and found six hidden notes/messages from him. His love for me sustains me thru my days and my nights and, surprisingly, I look forward to this Holiday season. My heart breaks with grief, but I've found a great deal of peace in my faith in God. I always thought my faith was strong, but my loss, my pain and my suffering have shown me that it is so much stronger than I gave myself credit for. God (and Bill) are taking care of me and for the first time in many months I look at my parents, my siblings, my children and my friends and I don't see worry in their eyes. I will be okay, I will be with Bill again someday and until that day, I will live life to the fullest and keep every promise I made to him. Thanks to all of you here for helping me along this path. Many of you will never know how special your words, hugs and prayers have been to me. God bless all of you and Happy Holidays. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hopeandstrength Posted December 8, 2006 Share Posted December 8, 2006 Merry Christmas, Beth. I hope you have a wondeful holiday season. The signs I have gotten from my dad help me too. Cathy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Geri Posted December 8, 2006 Share Posted December 8, 2006 So good to hear from you, your attitude is awesome! I wish you the best possible Christmas and an even better New Year. Geri Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ry Posted December 8, 2006 Share Posted December 8, 2006 I am so glad you are healing. I wish you all the best for the upcoming holiday season. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sharyn Posted December 8, 2006 Share Posted December 8, 2006 Beth, I am so glad that life seems "worth living" again... Bill I am sure is at great peace knowing his Beth is doing well. May you continue on this journey and gain more strength daily. I wish for you love and peace during this holiday season. Love, Sharon Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ann Posted December 8, 2006 Share Posted December 8, 2006 (((((((((((((Beth))))))))))))))) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Frank Lamb Posted December 8, 2006 Share Posted December 8, 2006 Beth,the healing process is a long one and I am glad you sound like you are coping with it.Hoping the good memories,friends,and family help with the holidays. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mamasbabygirl Posted December 8, 2006 Share Posted December 8, 2006 Love ya Beth and I am glad you came here to post this update on you. Thinking of you... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Don Wood Posted December 8, 2006 Share Posted December 8, 2006 Merry Christmas, Beth, to you and your boys. Don Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
trish2418 Posted December 8, 2006 Share Posted December 8, 2006 My best wishes for a happy holiday season. Trish Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
shineladysue Posted December 9, 2006 Share Posted December 9, 2006 God Bless you Beth and Merry Christmas. Love, Sue Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nick C Posted December 9, 2006 Share Posted December 9, 2006 Beth, It's so wonderful you have found strength in our Lord. I'm sorry any of this has happened. But thank you for showing us that there is strength to move forward. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MEA Posted December 9, 2006 Share Posted December 9, 2006 Beth, What an inspiration you are...I "hear" happiness in your post and it makes me smile. May God continue to provide peace in your heart. God Bless and Merry Christmas Mary Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Treebywater Posted December 9, 2006 Share Posted December 9, 2006 (((((Beth))))) You are so special. Bill was (and is) so special. Thank you for letting us know how you are doing. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tracey Huguley Posted December 9, 2006 Share Posted December 9, 2006 Happy Holidays...with lots of love sent your way.... Love, Tracey Huguley Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
stand4hope Posted December 9, 2006 Share Posted December 9, 2006 ((((((((((((BETH)))))))))))))) I think you know how big that hug really is. All my love is sent your way. I wish a very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. Love, Peggy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nikkala Posted December 9, 2006 Share Posted December 9, 2006 Wow Beth, I am in awe over your strength. You've come a long way baby. Wishing you a very merry christmas and a wonderful new year. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jyoung20 Posted December 9, 2006 Share Posted December 9, 2006 Merry Christmas to you!! You are such a special person!!! Thank You for being my friend. Love ya, Jamie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jdjenkins Posted December 9, 2006 Share Posted December 9, 2006 Beth, I'm so very happy that you have found peace with the Lord. Thanks for posting such an inspirational message, I'm sure your words will help many find some joy this holiday season. Merry Christmas Beth! God Bless, Denise Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
chloesmom Posted December 9, 2006 Share Posted December 9, 2006 Hi Beth, I knew this day was approaching and was wondering how you are doing. I'm delighted to read that you are feeling good and I hope you continue on this upswing. Yes, life is worth living, and while you will see Bill again someday, live your life to the fullest while you are here. This makes my day to know that you're feeling good. Have a peaceful and happy holiday season. Cindy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Maryanne Posted December 9, 2006 Share Posted December 9, 2006 Hi Beth, I have been thinking about you but I see you are in good hands. G-d has a way of helping wounded souls. "Ask and ye shall receive". I know your Bill has much to do with your healing process also. You are doing what his wishes are and he is at peace with that. He comes to you in your dreams. That is special. Also all those little notes you are finding is helping you heal. What a great way of letting you know how much he appreciates you and how much you are loved. Those letters are PRICELESS! You have been on a roller coaster ride this past year since your Bill's passing and I am glad for your new attitude. You have much to be thankful for this Xmas. Your beautiful family for one. It will be a bittersweet Xmas and I hold you close in my heart. Your Bill will always be near you and one day way the road you will be united and it will be an everlasting reunion. Peace be with you. Maryanne Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tnmynatt Posted December 9, 2006 Share Posted December 9, 2006 Beth, Glad you are coping so well. You are an inspiration. Merry Christmas! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ma's kid Posted December 10, 2006 Share Posted December 10, 2006 (((((Beth)))))) Libby Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Patkid Posted December 10, 2006 Share Posted December 10, 2006 My dear friend, I love to read this. God is Good! Pat Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Andrea Posted December 10, 2006 Share Posted December 10, 2006 I am so glad to see your post. Youa re such a strong person! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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