MomsGirl Posted December 24, 2006 Share Posted December 24, 2006 Hi everyone- I've been MIA from this board for awhile - having a newborn and two other kids in the house leaves me little time for anything else (including thinking too much). A blessing? Maybe- I'm still convinced this baby is here for a reason.... My two sisters and I went to Arlington Cemetery this morning and put a wreath on Mom's grave - we attached ornaments the kids made and also a "Mom" ornament. Just looking at the wreath sitting under her name on the stone - my sister said "Did you ever think we'd be HERE on Christmas Eve?" and we all burst into tears. My mom LOVED Christmas like no one I know...she made it special for everyone. In 40 years, I've never gone a Christmas without going to my parents' house and eating my mom's Christmas cookies, and watching her pass out presents to all the kids and grandkids. We are going this year, but it will be unreal without her there. Nick, I read your post about mortality. Suddenly I feel it. It's so strange and disturbing. The feeling of not having a mom is inexplicable. The pain...oh, the pain. My mom was going to be one of those hip, cute little 85-year-old women, taking care of the younger ones in the retirement community, running all over the place. She barely sat down when she was alive, and to see this illness take her life (in every way) was heartbreaking. It's like I'm still sort of in this denial phase - when the thought that I will never see her again pops into my head, I push it far away. Too painful...last Christmas we didn't even know she had cancer, and this Christmas she is gone. SCLC is the most evil, insidious disease...I try so hard every day not to be bitter. But it's hard... I guess I just want to reach out to everyone out there and send you my thoughts and prayers during this holiday season. I'm thinking of all of you... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Don Wood Posted December 24, 2006 Share Posted December 24, 2006 Hang in there, Michele. Yes, it is tough. Lucie as mother was such a central figure at Christmas time with the family, it is going to be hard. But we will get through it. Don Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Treebywater Posted December 25, 2006 Share Posted December 25, 2006 Oh Michele, I so get it. I really, really do. And I hurt with you and for you.... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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