kamataca Posted March 12, 2007 Share Posted March 12, 2007 My mom amazes me. We got some mixed news last week. The good news is that her brain is still clear (empty-headed!). The bad news is her primary continues to grow (now at 11cm) and the tumor eating into her hip is still growing. This is even with trying new chemos, etc. She is now at a point where she is trying things they originally told us were too dangerous for her (Carboplatin--too harsh for her kidneys, radiation to lung--too dangerous b/c the tumor is in the only 'good' part of her lung). The radiation onc. hasn't officially approved the radiation to the lung, but it is an option they are considering. The Dr. has told her she can't go anywhere alone anymore (grocery store, dr. ofice, etc.). Her independent self HATES this. The primary is pressing on her lung so much that her breathing is quite compromised, even on constant oxygen. This causes her heart to start misbehaving, and gives her real problems. She also can't do much of what she used to--her laundry, dishes, etc. I fill in where I can, around my family's busy schedule. I know that someday I will miss all of the time I spend over there, though it is often taxing on me now. I am just beside myself, and so, so weary of this fight. Mom has such a good attitude. She says she feels like she is living on borrowed time (her predicted 'expiration date' expired 7 months ago) and she is determined to enjoy all she can. I need to borrow a page from her book. I really am trying. She just amazes me. Kelly Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hockeyma Posted March 12, 2007 Share Posted March 12, 2007 Attitude means so much - and as long as it is good - go with it best you can. Thoughts and prayers for your mom, you and your family as you go through this together. Heather Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Andrea Posted March 12, 2007 Share Posted March 12, 2007 Both you and your mom are strong fighters! Thinking of you Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kasey Posted March 12, 2007 Share Posted March 12, 2007 (((Kelly))), Borrowed time is the most precious, don't you think? May there be plenty of it for you and your dear mother. I am so sorry for this latest development. Kasey Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mamasbabygirl Posted March 12, 2007 Share Posted March 12, 2007 She is definitely a tough cookie, one I'd be proud of. Try to take a minute for you, but I know how hard that is. Hugs and prayers, as always! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tkelley Posted March 12, 2007 Share Posted March 12, 2007 Kelly, So sorry the news isn't better, praying for all of you! Your mom is an incredible fighter. Tammy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Don Wood Posted March 12, 2007 Share Posted March 12, 2007 Amazing Mom! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dadstimeon Posted March 12, 2007 Share Posted March 12, 2007 Kelly, Your mother is one amazing woman and certainly an inspiration to me. Prayers for nothing but the best for the both of you. Rich Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MEA Posted March 13, 2007 Share Posted March 13, 2007 Kelly, Keeping you and your mother in my thoughts and prayers. Mary Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
carolhg Posted March 13, 2007 Share Posted March 13, 2007 What a great attitude your mother has. I continue to keep her in my prayers. Carol Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ann Posted March 13, 2007 Share Posted March 13, 2007 Kelly, now I can see where your get your fortitude and spunk!!! Yes, your mom is an amazing woman and truly an inspiration for all that are fighting this disease. Although it's hard to do, try to make some time to take care of yourself. I'll be saying prayers for both you and your mom. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
melindasue37 Posted March 13, 2007 Share Posted March 13, 2007 Kelly, I'm very sorry that the news you received wasn't better. The loss of independence is so hard but how amazing that your Mom keeps a good attitude and such determination. You are in my prayers. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Welthy Posted March 13, 2007 Share Posted March 13, 2007 It is amazing how strong our survivor's are sometimes, isn't it? Your Mom stands as a strong inspiration to so many. I know how hard it is to lose that independence, as Tony's activities have also become curtailed by the oxygen/breathing issues. Your Mom will still be able to have little triumphs over this horrid disease. Just a ride in the car on a beautiful day can mean so much. Take care of yourself -- I truly understand when you say you are weary, it happens to most caregivers. Interesting how our "patients" give US the strength to carry on with the battle. I hope there are better times ahead and new treatments to ease her breathing. Welthy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Heather_T Posted March 13, 2007 Share Posted March 13, 2007 You and your family are in my thoughts. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ErinC1973 Posted March 16, 2007 Share Posted March 16, 2007 Kelly, I am so sorry to hear this! But from everything I know about your mom, she is a fighter with great spirit and spunk, and she will persevere. I do have to tell you that my mom was on the Taxol/Carboplatin combo and she did GREAT; in fact, it was THE thing that made her primary tumor disappear. And remember, my mom was on dialysis three days a week, 2.5 hours per day with just 17% kidney function. It did NOT affect her kidney function at all. Once a month she would get admitted for her chemo. Her schedule was as follows: Monday, Taxol, Tuesday Taxol/Carbo, then dialysis, and Wednesday Taxol. She usually got sick on Thursday and was fine the rest of the month. I do realize your mom isn't on dialysis so this makes a big difference, but the key is that the Taxol/Carbo didn't make her lose and more kidney function; she had an option of other chemos which she was warned WOULD make her lose the 17% she did have. I am thinking of your mom, and cheering for her on the sidelines. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ma's kid Posted March 18, 2007 Share Posted March 18, 2007 You BOTH are amazing. Please do take some *me time* Prayers and hugs, Kelly. Love, Libby Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kathleen1 Posted March 20, 2007 Share Posted March 20, 2007 You are both amazing women. I am sending prayers your way. k Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Treebywater Posted March 20, 2007 Share Posted March 20, 2007 Kelly--I so thought I had responded to this, and I'm sorry I am only doing so now. Praying for you and that amazing Mama of yours. I know how weary you both must be and your strength and courage and love for each other are just incredible. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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