TracyD Posted March 29, 2007 Share Posted March 29, 2007 I really thought that I would be able to get through this day just like any other day, but I can't. One year ago today Charlie and I sat in a hospital room after my bronchoscopy, which was supposed to show that I did NOT have cancer, and listened to the pulmonologist tell us that I had adenocarcinoma. One year ago today my familys world was shaken to its core. One year ago today we sat down and told our three little children that mommy had cancer, and we all just cried. I want today to be over, but that will bring tomorrow, which brings scan results at 9:30. I don't really want to deal with tomorrow either. I hate this all so much. I have been feeling really well lately and I am expecting the results to be good, but what if they're not? I know, we'll cry a bit, and then we'll pick ourselves up and keep on fighting. Wouldn't it just be great to not have to be fighting? I'm really okay, I just want today to be over. Tracy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
wendyr Posted March 29, 2007 Share Posted March 29, 2007 Tracy, who could blame you for feeling this way. You've had a very long year. I do pray for good scans & a good report tomorrow. Good Luck & God Bless wendy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
fillise Posted March 29, 2007 Share Posted March 29, 2007 Tracy, While it hasn't been easy, you've beaten this diesease for a year! I'm praying for a good report tomorrow and a celebration.--Susan Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Calintay Posted March 29, 2007 Share Posted March 29, 2007 (((TRACY))) Much love and prayers for you. I surely hope you just don't have to fight anymore and that your scan results are EXCELLENT! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
raneyf Posted March 29, 2007 Share Posted March 29, 2007 I hear you Tracy - I get scan results Monday, so I'd like to fast forward to Tuesday if possible. Either that or rewind to before there ever was this stupid cancer in our lives. Praying for good scans for you, and even though this day is bringing back bad memories for you, congratulations, you've beat this thing for a year so far - that's good work. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ernrol Posted March 30, 2007 Share Posted March 30, 2007 Tracy, I will pray for good scan results. You have been progressing each scan. There is no reason you shouldn't have good results this time. Stay positive, Ernie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
gail Posted March 30, 2007 Share Posted March 30, 2007 I hear you too, loud and clear. I remember my first anniversary and I was a mess too. Then I discovered the wonders of facials they take the stress out of everything. A year anniversary is a very big deal. you done good girl gail Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Debi Posted March 30, 2007 Share Posted March 30, 2007 Tracy, I understand. Between the one year date and scans in the morning - this couldn't have been an easy day. Tomorrow will be better. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Wendy Posted March 30, 2007 Share Posted March 30, 2007 Hugs to you today and hoping that tomorrow brings good news. Wendy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ry Posted March 30, 2007 Share Posted March 30, 2007 I hate these anniversary dates too. On one hand you're glad you've made it and on the other it is a reminder of the worst day of your life. You're glad to reach the milestone but don't want to think about the day that changed your life forever. I hope the scans are fine-- I will be crossing fingers for you tomorrow. Let us know. Rochelle Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
KatieB Posted March 30, 2007 Share Posted March 30, 2007 I can't imagine how difficult this past year has been for you, yet you and your family have endured and I imagine have become closer. You yourself have become a voice for awareness and most importantly, you are a survivor! I'm sending loads of positive thoughts and prayers for today to pass gently and quickly for you, and that those results tomorrow are just great. Let us know. We will all be thinking about you. Hugs, Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
carolhg Posted March 30, 2007 Share Posted March 30, 2007 ((((((((((((Tracy)))))))))) I am praying that you and your family will celebrate good scan results. I HATE THIS DISEASE! Carol Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Andrea Posted March 30, 2007 Share Posted March 30, 2007 Wow, it has been a year already. You are such a tough girl. Anniversarys and certain time frames are such a reminder. I am anxiously awaiting to hear good news from you tomorrow! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Shar Posted March 30, 2007 Share Posted March 30, 2007 I get what you are saying Tracy. I often refer to my old life as B.C. (before cancer) and it makes me sad that there is no going back. Trust me, congratulate yourself on what you have done this past year. I bet you have found a strength you never thought you had. As for the scan results, well the best indicator is you. If you're feeling well, it will be ok. Will be thinking about you, Sharon Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
daddyslittlegirl Posted March 30, 2007 Share Posted March 30, 2007 I'm so sorry for what you and your family had to deal with last year. You have made it through a tough year and I'm just praying for good news tomorrow so you and your family can celebrate and look forward to many many more good times. Take care. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sharyn Posted March 30, 2007 Share Posted March 30, 2007 Tracey, I am sorry yesterday was so hard for you, it is now 7:00am on Friday and you are due to get your results soon... May God bless you with good news and renewed strength. Please let us know as soon as you can. Love, Sharon Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ann Posted March 30, 2007 Share Posted March 30, 2007 Saying prayers for very good results today, Tracy! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sis Posted March 30, 2007 Share Posted March 30, 2007 Tracy, I'm praying for a fantastic report. Keep the faith. We have so much faith in YOU. Ellie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
trish2418 Posted March 30, 2007 Share Posted March 30, 2007 The big day is behind you now; I hope you took some time to congratulate yourself on fighting so well. You're an incredibly strong woman and you're showing us all what it means to fight. Praying for only the best test results today. Trish Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ztweb Posted March 30, 2007 Share Posted March 30, 2007 OH Tracy. I am so sorry about everything. Cancer sucks. I wish so much for you that you never, ever had to go through all you have. Please know you have my prayers today. May God wrap you in his arms, hold you tight, and give you hope, peace, and love, Jen Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Treebywater Posted March 30, 2007 Share Posted March 30, 2007 (((((Tracy)))))) Praying that we'll see some good news from thsoe results very soon. Yes, it's been a hellish year and I hate that for you... but I'm so glad you are still going strong. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Welthy Posted March 30, 2007 Share Posted March 30, 2007 ((Tracy)), Count me among the well-wishers for good scan results. This has been a tough year for you and yours, but what a wonderful milestone to achieve! Keep us posted. Welthy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kasey Posted March 30, 2007 Share Posted March 30, 2007 (((Tracy, Tracy, Tracy))), You KNOW you are on our minds all the time. We are holding our breath here in PA awaiting word from you. You have done a remarkable job this past year.....teaching many how to travel this road. Normal is now 'different' but, hopefully, can still be good. Your incredible husband and children give the the best tonic there is......a positive reason to get up every day and get on with living. I told you before about the stats, remember? You are making the NEW stats, and I say GOOD for YOU! We love you so much! Many many hugs, kisses and love! Aunt Kasey Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dadstimeon Posted March 31, 2007 Share Posted March 31, 2007 Prayers for the best Tracy. Rich Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dazy Posted March 31, 2007 Share Posted March 31, 2007 Thinking of you, Tracy. I am sending HUGS and prayers for good results! Yours in HOPE!! Stacey Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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