wondermom Posted September 4, 2007 Share Posted September 4, 2007 I am sitting here at home while my mom struggles to breath, struggles to sleep, cry, get relief from her pain at the hospital. I can't stop crying. I have never felt so helpless as I did today. She is not getting relief for her pain which is all through her hips and legs. She can't even scoot herself up on the bed. I cannot believe what a fast downhill rollercoaster this has been this week. She hasn't eaten anything in 3 days. I am so angry. How could God let something so aweful happen to my mom...to anyone. I was brought up to pray and hope but today I am just so sad and angry that I don't know what to believe. My mom and dad pray the rosary every day asking that my mom be cured. The thought of it tears me up inside. I just don't know how to handle this anymore. I feel like I am falling apart. My Dad is staying with my mom at the hospital tonight. She wanted him there for comfort. I know my dad wants to be there but it is so hard to watch mom struggle to breath and be so very uncomfortable. I just came home and have been a wreck. I can't imagine how my dad is feeling. I am sure he won't sleep tonight with all the beeping machines and nurses coming in. Mom had another CT scan today and the fluid continues to build. I am sure she will have to have it drained tomorrow but she says she doesn't want them to do it. She had it done upon diagnosis 9 months ago and said it was aweful. I remember she almost past out. I am so scared. Scared of losing my mom. I hate to even say it out loud. Please pray that my mom gets some relief soon. Jill Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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