KatieB Posted November 21, 2007 Share Posted November 21, 2007 This entire year I said I would not have Thanksgiving...the holidays were 100% my mom....even after we lost my dad...she tried so hard to make it the "same". She spoiled us. She loved us that much. This is my first year to "do" thanksgiving all alone. I said I wouldn't do it at all, and then on a whim I said I would and invited people so that I couldn't back out...really, my kids deserve a thanksgiving and we need to make our own traditions right? Well, I tried out one of my moms specials recipes tonight- one that she only did on Thanksgiving and Christmas. I wanted to practice early so that I would have it "right" on Thanksgiving day...well, the entire process was devestating...I kept thinking of the 30+ years before that I sat next to my mom making this dish...how I "helped" her and watched her and how she did it all for us all these years....tonight, I did it all alone....and I cried and I couldn't stop. Finally, after I cooked it, it tasted 99% like my moms...and that just made me even more sad..... Its the end of being someones daughter and being a part of the celebration...it's now the beginning of being the head of the house and making of traditions.... It's the nature and cycle of life...but it stinks and it hurts...really a lot. I just really miss my mom...and I still miss my dad so much ...and no matter what I do...I just miss them. Thanks for letting me vent here. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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