sallys Posted December 10, 2007 Share Posted December 10, 2007 I am so sad right now….Today I am so sick and hurting from the Alimta and the pain I always have because I can’t get all my meds down, and so weak and my bowels are really constipated causing pain too.. I have no Christmas decorations up yet, one son with infection in his lungs from copd, my youngest facing possible surgery with this tumor on his spine and he is scared and on pain pills with the sciatic pain and he’s also an alcoholic fighting to stay sober to boot….my husband just is overloaded taking over all that I do and losing his temper. Neither son has transportation to take them anywhere. There is no Christmas cheer in this home and no decorations and no gifts bought without me and I’m the only one who has the heart to understand all that is going on and I just don’t have the strength to fight right now. And I am in tears here and praying for a good day to come again. No one seems to be really working together here without me. Christmas is a fun and loving time and this could be my last and I was so in hopes to have some good days to do all the decorating and shopping that needs to be done to make things bright and cheerful. And I don’t want them to know how really sick I feel here. I am so missing the joy of Christmas Spirit and so very sad I can’t get things somewhat normal around here. Guess I am what one would say depressed right now, but you all say this is where we let it all out and that is what I am doing. I can use prayers for peace and joy and feeling better to do what all I need to do and get some cheer going in this home. Anyone else going through this right now? How can I change things….I have always been the strong, dependable, understanding one as Momma and wife and I feel I am hurting everyone right now. Well just wanted to talk to someone here thanks for listening…..hugs and prayers, Sally Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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