Geri Posted December 12, 2007 Share Posted December 12, 2007 or so my daughter informed me today! Things here have been a little rough lately, the cure is definitely worse than the disease right now. I have been having increasing difficuties with SOB over the last couple of months which came to a head last week. No need to send you all to sleep with the details but with the help of Lasix my lungs (yes my lovely clean cancer free lungs) have been emptied of the fluid, however my heart is now suspect for damage due to the chemo - I can't fail to see the irony in this one should it prove true I see a cardiologist tomorrow after an echocardiogram and hopefully she'll be able to shed some light on what's going on. I had a muga (sp?) test before the start of chemo as heart damage is a 'slight' risk with the type of tx I had sooo.........5 months ago my heart was good and I'm keeping everything crossed that this is just a temporary problem. Today I had a melt down, Richard is still communting and had gone back to VT yesterday after my clean bill of health from the onc re my most recent breathing crisis. Wouldn't you know it today it's baaaack! Not quite as bad as last week but enough that I'm only moving when I have to, so my daughter who practices Reiki on me came by again to give me the once over. She arrived to find me snivelling into a kleenex feeling very sorry for myself. I'm having a great deal of difficulty dealing with the loss of independence right now and it pisses me off that someone else has to help me with so many ordinary things. Anyway Karen took no prisoners, welcomed me to the human race and reminded me that I don't mind doing things for other people so get over it so to speak, these things happen and now it was my turn to accept the help I needed. She then made dinner! What a gem. She takes me to appts when Richard can't get back here (and anywhere else that maybe too far for me to manage), brings me dinner, has given me a card before each tx to cheer me on and today she put me in my place during my pity party - which she did join in for a while - all the while working 10+ hour days, I guess we did do something right when she was younger I didn't mean to turn this into a novel but if I helped with anyone's insomnia tonight - it was my pleasure! Now I shall return to my recliner and try to get some sleep. Thanks for listening Geri Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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