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I used to get so excited about my birthday. I was due on the 9th but didn't arrive until the 18th of April. I used to pester Mom starting on the 9th about what she was doing "X" years ago. And I always called her at the exact time I was born. I always thought of it as a gift that they had me. Now it seems like it doesn't even matter. The two people that created me and the one that gave me life are gone. I am no one's "punkin" and no one's little girl. When will it get better???

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(((hug)))

I know. I'm no ones little girl anymore either. It's hard. They are both still with you in your heart and memories. I hope some good memories of them can bring you some comfort one day.

It's not fair, and I'm so sorry. Please be gentle to yourself this birthday month. Do something just for YOU because you've been thru so much and because you deserve it!

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I don't see my bday getting better.

Mom would always call me at the exact time I was born.

And everytime I protested I didn't want to make a big deal, or didn't want cake, she would say, "this is as much my day as yours. It was the happiest day of my life, so your eating cake."

I can honestly say, I'll never want a cake on my birthday ever again.

So I totally get it.

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I know what you mean. Every year I'm reminded that I will not get that phone call with her singing Happy Birthday to me. She always called her kids first thing and sang. Mine is the 16th and I know exactly how you are feeling.

This year would have been a little more special not because of age but because I was born on a Wednesday and it is on a Wednesday and she would have reminded me of that.

Maryanne

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I didn't post this to announce my birthday coming up. In the past, I would have! :wink: I am just so sad lately and I think it has alot to do with losing my parents.

Thanks to those that responded to my post.

I just didn't want yall to think I was soliciting!

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  • 2 weeks later...

:( I know, I wonder when or if it gets better as well. It was so hard to face my first birthday without mom. Now with Mother's Day coming up I have no idea what to do without mom. I'm no longer anyone's 'boo' or 'kate-o.'

Am thinking of you! If I have any lightbulb moments that give me hope or help will let you know. :)

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warmest wishes,

Kate

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I think I know how you're feeling right now. My birthday is on Wednesday. This will be the first birthday without a card or phone call. My birthday also happens to fall on the 3 month mark after her death. The one month and two month marks were both pretty difficult, so how am I supposed to celebrate on that day? However, I know she'd want me to.

Also doesn't help that this week is Mother's Day and the two year anniversary of her diagnosis. Oh boy.

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