Dina Posted April 25, 2008 Share Posted April 25, 2008 What a month this has been. My Dad has been in the hospital since the 1st. He woke up that day and could not get out of bed...off to the hospital we go. They did a bone scan to find his cancer has spread to his bones making its home in his spine. We also received the path report from a chest mass he had removed on March 19th - Cancer of an unknown primary. It was some type of "mucus" mass - so they assume it is in the GI tract somewhere. The cancer markers and blood results are showing cancer in the pancreas now too - which MAY be the new primary since it is part of the digestive tract...BUT - no more tests, no more treatments - just comfort care for him. They did 12 radiation treatments to his spine that did not help at all. So - here we are not knowing....no idea where the new primary is, no idea how bad the bone mets are. To top it all off - Dad is alergic to Narcotics - the only pain med his body can handle is tylenol. He is in so much pain that he can't even sit up anymore. Dad still wants to fight - he wants to continue with treatments even though the Dr's have said his chemo did not work. His Dr's said if we find out where all the Cancer is - it won't change the outcome. Dad does not understand that he can not be "blind" treated. I am still in the denial stage - the "what ifs" are eating me alive. What if the cancer can be treated?? What if they are wrong?? I am being selfish - I want more tests!!! I want to know - how the hell do I deal with all the unknowns? No offense to anyone - I do not have my faith to turn to - my faith failed me many, many years ago. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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