lc46 Posted June 20, 2008 Posted June 20, 2008 I have been sitting by my Moms bed all day and she hasn't woken up-I just want her to wake up one more time. The last coherent thing she said was Monday night that she wants a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. I don't think I can take this pain and she's not even gone yet. I can't catch my breath I never thought I could feel so sad
Patti B Posted June 20, 2008 Posted June 20, 2008 I am just so terribly sorry. Words cannot express how I feel. Hugs to you and strength - Patti B.
Treebywater Posted June 20, 2008 Posted June 20, 2008 Your posts have brought me back to remembering my Mom's last days in a way I haven't in some time. I know the feelings you speak of. I know how suffocating it is. I know how much it hurts. I'm sorry and I care.
simplyklb Posted June 20, 2008 Posted June 20, 2008 Thinikng of you and your mom as well as saying a prayer for you both, Dar. Kristi
Flyman35 Posted June 20, 2008 Posted June 20, 2008 I'm sorry Dar. Wishing you peace and comfort in the days ahead. Denise
lc46 Posted June 20, 2008 Author Posted June 20, 2008 I thought over the past 2 years I would be prepared for this day but I'm not and I can't stop hypervenilating. I feel like she's already gone but she's still here & I need to know that she is ok and that she is leaving this earth peacefully. I always helped her through all of her anxiety and now I don't know what she's thinking and I can't help her. I listened to her chest and she has that rattle so I know the time is close and then I'm never going to see her again and I don't think I can handle it.
cjolaw Posted June 20, 2008 Posted June 20, 2008 I am so sorry you are going through this...it hurts so much. I will pray for your family tonight.
Larry's Wife Posted June 20, 2008 Posted June 20, 2008 (((Dar))) Prayers for peace and strength. Lynn
Flyman35 Posted June 20, 2008 Posted June 20, 2008 Oh Dar, my heart goes out to you. My sister-in-law passed away from throat cancer that went to her bones, brain and lungs in the end 3 years ago October. For 2 weeks she lay unresponsive. Her eyes were open but no movement, no blinking. The hospice kept telling us this is the night, this is the night and damned if she didn't go in her own good time. Well during one of these times we all gathered around her bed and started talking about the old days. Tom and his other sister Sharon mentioned her old car that she nick named Nellie Bell and she let out a laugh. 2 weeks of nothing and then a laugh!! I always knew she was still in there. We were overjoyed to say the least for that 1 very small but special moment. Praying that you get your special moment. Denise
SandraL Posted June 20, 2008 Posted June 20, 2008 Peace be with you at this time. It is so hard to even hear this news, never mind live it. Tons of prayers for you at this time. Sandra
Treebywater Posted June 20, 2008 Posted June 20, 2008 Oh honey, you ARE helping her. And you ARE easing her anxiety. Because you are THERE. You are caring for her, holding her hand, being with her in this so that she's not alone as she moves over to that side. Don't you think otherwise for an instant. Even if you're not talking it all out, she is buoyed and strengthened because you are there.
shineladysue Posted June 20, 2008 Posted June 20, 2008 ((((Dar)))), No words, just lots of hugs and prayers coming your way. Hugs, Sue
CaroleHammett Posted June 20, 2008 Posted June 20, 2008 I cannot possibly express how sad i am that you are having to go through this. All I can say is hold her hand as long as you can. She'll know at some level, no matter how distant she may appear to be. Affectionately, Carole
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