SandraL Posted September 4, 2008 Share Posted September 4, 2008 Well I am at home today basically doing nothing. Nothing except thinking about cancer. I see it is a slow day on the boards today and I have been thinking about posting this for some time, so what the heck. Since my diagnosis..."thinking" about cancer seems to be my full time occupation. I actually talk very little about it at home because I have young kids and they surely don't need to hear about it. That is probably why I come here so darn much, because I am always thinking about it and here at least there is an outlet to express those thoughts morning, noon or night. I do talk a little bit more about it at work actually. Because people there are always asking me how I am doing and feeling and I tell them because they have much empathy. One of the reasons (I have a number of them) that I continue to go to work is because there I can get totally engrossed in what you guys would think is boring work stuff, and before I know it I have been in a meeting for an hour or two and realize I have thought of cancer very little if at all. That is because I am passionate about my work. I also find passion in doing things with my family but they of course are not around all the time. I read early on in my diagnosis that finding something you really are passionate about and putting your heart and soul into it really does help with your general well being, positive outlook and in thinking less about cancer. And I believe it. But one can't be passionate all day (in or out of bed!) and there are many hours that pass. I wonder if the further out you get in surviving this disease, the less you think about it. That has not been the case for me yet but I think that is very difficult when you are going through active treatment. I know some longer term survivors leave this board to do just that. To get on with their life and think less about it. And who would blame them. I also wonder about spouses and primary caregivers. How much do they think about cancer? I know I am not alone in this. How much do you think about cancer, as a survivor or a spouse/caregiver? And has it lessened over time? And what have you found effective in helping not to think about it as much? Thanks in advance for sharing your thoughts with all of us. Sandra Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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