bunny Posted April 21, 2009 Share Posted April 21, 2009 Suki died this afternoon around 2:30. I neglected to take note of the precise time, and didn't know everyone would ask. I was holding her right hand, my husband stood next to me. My brother held her left, and his partner held him. My father was with us, as well. In the end, mom just couldn't breathe any more. She struggled to pull in every ounce of air over the last few days of her life and by this morning her sats were down to an unbelievable 47. Still, it snuck up on me. Her color and breathing changed, and I thought it was a new plateau where she'd hang out for a while as she had the other plateaus over the last week or so. But she turned her head towards me, breathed 3-4 more times and was quiet. It was perfect and beautiful. And desperately, desperately sad. I will write more soon. I am waiting for all of our family to be notified before posting anything related to mom's death on Facebook, and ask that my LCSC/Facebook friends do the same. I could never overstate what this place contributed to my ability to show up for Suki since her first recurrance in 2005. Thank you is the understatement of the century. And I keep thinking about Fay A., who once told us that when she died she would not be losing the battle against cancer, but winning it by denying it a place to continue to grow. Suki won today. And I was privilaged to be on her team. Love, love, love, Amie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Andrea Posted April 21, 2009 Share Posted April 21, 2009 I am so sorry for your loss You were an amazing daughter and your mom is so proud of you. My heart goes out to your family. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tnmynatt Posted April 21, 2009 Share Posted April 21, 2009 Amie, I'm soooo sorry to read this. I know what you are going through. My condolences to you and your family. Praying for strength and comfort and peace during this most difficult time. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Treebywater Posted April 21, 2009 Share Posted April 21, 2009 Amie, I love you my friend. I was honored to get to know Suki a little bit through you. I am so very, very sorry. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Larry's Wife Posted April 21, 2009 Share Posted April 21, 2009 Amie, I am so sorry that Suki passed away. My condolences to you and your family. Lynn Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
shineladysue Posted April 21, 2009 Share Posted April 21, 2009 (((Amie/Bunny))), My heart goes out to you and yours. I am just so sorry for your loss. We will all miss the Suki that you have helped us to know. She was an inspiration, a fighter and a "winner". God be with you . Love, Sue Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
RandyW Posted April 21, 2009 Share Posted April 21, 2009 thoughts Prayers And Condolences !! I am sorry for your loss but am glad she was surrounded by love and understanding.. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ginnyde Posted April 21, 2009 Share Posted April 21, 2009 Amie, I am so very sad. All of us here felt that we knew Suki through your loving and tender posts about her. She was very fortunate to have a daughter like you. My heart is with you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
chloesmom Posted April 21, 2009 Share Posted April 21, 2009 Amie, I am so very sorry for your loss, but your mom fought a great fight, and you were with her all the way. My thoughts are with you. Cindy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ry Posted April 21, 2009 Share Posted April 21, 2009 Amie- I am so sorry that you have suffered such a tremendous loss. I also think of Fay A's expression of winning the battle not losing it. Suki won her battle, the cancer can't hurt her anymore. My sympathy to you and your family. Rochelle Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tkelley Posted April 21, 2009 Share Posted April 21, 2009 Thinking of you and your family. Over the years, it has been so obvious how much you love your mom. She did win. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kasey Posted April 21, 2009 Share Posted April 21, 2009 Dear Amie, Suki in the Grieving forum took my breath away. I mentioned to you in the past that I felt a kindred spirit with her and her loss in felt deeply. Because of your mother you are the woman you are today. Her strength and courage are now yours and will help you through these very dark days. I'm thinking of you, Amie. Kasey Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MsC1210 Posted April 21, 2009 Share Posted April 21, 2009 ((((Amie)))) I am just so sorry. Please know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Much love and many, many hugs Christine Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SandraL Posted April 21, 2009 Share Posted April 21, 2009 My heart goes out to you and your family at this difficult time. May Suki rest in peace. Sandra Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
carolhg Posted April 21, 2009 Share Posted April 21, 2009 ((((Amie)))) I am so very sorry and saddened to read of your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family during this very sad time. Carol Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jstdzy Posted April 21, 2009 Share Posted April 21, 2009 My throughts and prayers go out to you and your family. Suki did win! Dana Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Patkid Posted April 21, 2009 Share Posted April 21, 2009 Love and hugs and support from IL. Suki has the MOST AMAZING daughter and family. With you, P Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Suzie Q Posted April 21, 2009 Share Posted April 21, 2009 I am just so, so sad to hear of your loss. ~Karen Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nick C Posted April 21, 2009 Share Posted April 21, 2009 I am so sorry. I am sad for this and for you...but she did win, didn't she ? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
fillise Posted April 21, 2009 Share Posted April 21, 2009 Amie--I am happy for Suki's victory, but so very sad for your loss. You will be in my prayers. Susan Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jyoung20 Posted April 21, 2009 Share Posted April 21, 2009 (((Amie))) I am so sorry for your loss. Prayers for you during this time. God Bless Jamie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MilliBr1 Posted April 21, 2009 Share Posted April 21, 2009 Amie, I am so very sorry. Your mom was such fighter and such an inspiration. She was very lucky to have such a wonderful daughter by her side every step of the way. You and your family are in my prayers. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cat127 Posted April 22, 2009 Share Posted April 22, 2009 I am so very very sorry for your loss. And I totally understand your description of "perfect and beautiful and desperately desperately sad". That's a very eloquent description. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jaminkw Posted April 22, 2009 Share Posted April 22, 2009 Suki fought so long and bravely it was hard to imagine her passing. My sincerest condolences to you and your family. If an end has to come, I can't imagine one more beautiful than you describe. Judy in Key West Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ann Posted April 22, 2009 Share Posted April 22, 2009 (((((((((((((((((((Bunny))))))))))))))))))))) I am so very sorry!!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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