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Caren

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step off and take a breath!

So as you all know it's been 2.5 weeks since my dad's passing. Sometimes it seems like he's been gone for longer and others it seems like he just left yesterday.

Yesterday I took a phone call from my son's school to say that they fear he has broken his wrist during a football game. So I go round there and having looked at the wrist decided that it needed Medical attention. This meant taking him the the Accident department of the hospital in which my dad passed away. I really didn't want to have to go back to this hospital so soon, but knew that I had to be strong and do this for my son. I was feeling a little shaky as I walked in, but once inside I settled down. We were'nt near the section of the hospital that my dad stayed in, so that made it a little easier for me. My son hasn't any broken bones, but does have a suspected fracture of the schapoid bone in his wrist and so has a cast on there for precautionary measures. They will examine him again in 2 weeks. The date is 22-6 ....marking 1 month since my dad's passing :(

I then received a call last night to say that my Uncle (Dad's only living sibling) has been admitted to that same hospital with a DVT and Renal Failure. My Aunt seems to be quite upbeat about things and told me that it's nothing to worry about and not to feel that I had to go into the hospital to visit with him, but how could I stay away?!?! So I will be going this afternoon and this time I will be going to the same section of the hospital that my dad was on. The same floor but a different ward. I just hope that I can hold myself together while I'm visiting with him.

It's my eldest daughter's 14th Birthday next Wednesday and usually I would be getting very excited for her by this time, but I'm not and she's not either. She told me that she feels bad to be happy that her Birthday is coming and I told her that she should not feel that way b/c Grandad knows that her life has to go on and that she has to enjoy every minute of her special day.

Then we have Father's Day the following Sunday.........My husband, myself and my dad never made a big fuss of Father's Day. We all agree that these days are just money making schemes for big companies. Although we did buy a card. My Dad's ashes haven't been interred yet and so I don't even feel that I have anywhere to go and spend time with him on that day :(

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Caren

I am so sorry. I know those painful feelings all too well. I posted yesterday about how much it still hurts that my Dad is no longer with us and he passed in 2005. There is so much he will be missing in my girl's lives.

All I can say is that as time goes on, the bad days seem to get farther apart. I wish I had a magic wand to take away the pain.

Wishing your uncle and soon a speedy recovery!

In my thoughts and prayers~~~

Angie

Hope you are feeling better soon!

Angie

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Caren, what comes through most profoundly in your post is that no matter how hard the grieving is, life goes on doesn't it. Kids especially, I believe, keep us going. Sorry about your son's arm and trust he will be out of that cast soon. Maybe you can figure out with your daughter what will work for all of you in a birthday celebration for her. She'll only turn fourteen once. What's happening with your dad's ashes? I'm hoping when you get that settled, it will give you some measure of peace.

May your visit to your uncle go gently for you and that he is better and back home soon.

Judy in Key West

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(((((Caren)))))

I am so sorry - seems like you are getting hit from all sides right now. I know its hard, but remember that your dad is right there with you.

Sending a huge comforting hug across the ocean to you and your entire family!!! (((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((HUG)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Patti B.

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Thank you all (((HUG)))

Judy, my dad's ashes will be buried in a plot at our Village Churchyard. We have to wait for a date for the Memorial and Interment to become available.

Turns out that my Uncle may be facing Prostate Cancer...things just seem to be going wrong from every angle right now.

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Dear Caren,

I'm so sorry about your dad. My dad has been gone for 23 years and I still miss his dear face. But even if I could, I wouldn't call him back to suffer as he was doing with emphysema, it was horrible.

I just wanted to say that my husband was diagnosed with prostate cancer 3 years ago. He was Stage IIb (they stage it differently than lung cancer) but anyway he had surgery and he is doing just fine. His PSA levels have stayed near zero and he feels fabulous.

Just wanted to give you a bit of hope for your uncle. There is a lot they can do with prostate cancer.

Hugs,

Joyce

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Hi Joyce

Thanks for taking the time to reply.

I'm glad that your husband is doing well following his surgery for Prostate Cancer. My dad was also diagnosed with this and they kept it under control with Hormone Therapy and so I know that it isn't always something to worry too much about. It just seems so unfair that he just loses his brother (his only surviving sibling) to find out that he could now be facing the 'big C' himself :(

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