kimblanchard Posted December 23, 2003 Share Posted December 23, 2003 Last Wed. my mother went for her regular appt. and again was unable to do chemo because of low blood count and platelets. She went over to the hospital and had both transfusions. After her stay overnight my dad went to bring her home and her feet and legs were so swollen (they had been for about 4 weeks) she could no longer feel her feet and she was no longer able to stand. Somehow we got her home and into her bed-now not able to get out. Later that day she had shortness of breath and we heard gurgling in her breathing. We called the Dr. immediately and he called Hospice (who we were waiting to talk to anyway) and they did an emergency visit. They put her on oxygen and gave her liquid morphine to help with her breathing. The next morning after not being about to move her because of pain and shortness of breath we called the Hospice nurse to come to the house to help us. She said that they had a room avail. for her and recommended us to come because of it being Fri. and not being able to get quick help over the weekend. We finally agreed it was the best thing to do-my mother agreed. Now they have her on a morphine pump and she is in comatose state. She is unable to talk or respond because of the level of morphine. She is no longer eating or drinking. All we are doing is keeping her comfortable. I can't believe how things changed overnight. I feel helpless. We are just waiting around for her to die.......I don't understand. I do know that we had no choice because we knew her days of chemo were over and her cancer had progressed. I can't stand how drugged up she is but I don't think we had a choice because of her pain and shortness of breath. I go to see her everyday and have read all of the booklets on dying and telling her it's okay to let go... we have done all of that. This whole thing is just wrong! But I will say that during my mothers illness since Sept. 19th we had become so close and said all of the things we were unable to say for the longest time, so I have total peace within myself and I believe my mother does also. Kim Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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