5 months ago today

[michellep]

It's been 5 months today that my Donald joined the lord. Most days it seems like just yesterday and the pain is still as intense as it was the moment he left. I've had a couple "fair days"....very few actually. This sure is a struggle to kept my sanity ya know?

As some of you know my son is in love with a wonderful woman and they are planning a future together which I'm very happy about. BUT he dropped a bomb shell on me yesterday saying he'll be moving to where she lives in Illinois. I'm in California. Does it make sense that even though I want them together I'm heartbroken at the same time. I've had nightmares since Donald passed about people leaving me.....all kinds of people for various reasons, so this has really thrown me for a loop.

I have a huge house full of things and I don't know what I'm supposed to do. I'll have to sell of course, but selling furniture etc is scary. I don't like the idea of strangers coming into my home. Everything is new so simply giving it away is a hard decision to make.

I think my brain is on pure overload right now. Too many things to worry about and I feel so alone. I miss my husband dearly.

[jaminkw]

Wow, Michelle, my heart goes out to you. I remember when my daughter moved with my grandson five hours away. It must be so difficult coming so soon after Dennis passed away. Hang on there and keep us posted.

Judy

[Calintay]

(((HUGS)))