2 years tomorrow

[bam451]

Wow, it's been a long time since I've been here. I had to finally cut the strings because it was too emotional for me. Tomorrow it will be two years that my beautiful mother passed away. The wave of emotions have totally snuck up on me. I've been doing better. I've been doing real good remembering the good times and not letting cancer fog my memories. I talk about her all the time to her grandson Jacob. Whenever we look at the stars I tell him that it's his Grandma Bonny looking down on him. I tell him all the time how much she loves him and that they would have been so close. But here I sit tonight crying like a baby. Last year I took off work because I didn't think I could handle it. I'm starting to think I should have taken tomorrow off. I just miss her so much! I'm so angry that she's gone. That she was taken from me. That all my other friends have their moms and get to do mother daughter things. That she was taken from us before she could meet her grandson. We were so close, and I still feel that closeness to her. Somedays it's just not enough. I guess today is one of those days. Thanks for listening to me vent.

[jaminkw]

Your posting must be before my joining but I am sorry for your pain in anticipating the anniversary of the loss of your mother. May work distract you and the day pass gently for you.

Judy

[Ann]

Thinking of you today and knowing how much you are missing your mom.

[Nick C]

I hope the day passed as easily as possible...we understand.