lilyjohn Posted January 21, 2011 Share Posted January 21, 2011 I just came from the hospital. My sister in law Sherrell is in her last hours. We were told that she may not make it through the night. I didn't want to believe it but after seeing her I know that it is true. My brother Harold died in 1974, she has been my sister longer than he was my brother. They married when she was only 14. I am devastated at the thought of loosing her but I know it is coming. Being there took me back to some places I will always revisit in my mind. I remember the 10 days of waiting in ICU when Harold was dying. I remember being in almost a trance because at the same time my family in Louisiana was being threatened by a major huricane. I remember the fear and disbelief when he was gone. I had never experienced the death of someone as close. I had such a urge to run to run from what was happening I had no idea it was just the beginning. Just a few months later Johnny's sister Betty was murdered and even though I had not seen her in 14 years I felt the loss of her so deeply. Four years later it was my oldest brother and seven years later both my brother Arthur and my mom. Later my dad. I thought when they died that I would get used to the pain. That death wouldn't touch me so deeply again. Then I found and lost Johnny and the world tipped and life has never been the same. Just a few years later it was my ex husband Denis then my oldest friend Carol and then Johnny's brother Harold. There have been so many more. I felt the walls closing in on me in that hospital tonight. I felt that same sense of unreality that I had the morning that I lost Johnny. I know the end is coming for Sherrell and my heart breaks for her and all of us. I know she will be with Harold again and I am glad for that but my heart aches for our loss and so many years that I spend away from her too. My heart is always scattered around in different places, being pulled from one loved one to another and one place to another. I am sorry for rambling. This loss we are facing is weighing heavy on my heart tonight. I also learned that my cousin Ruby who was pronounced cancer free just a couple of weeks ago is in the hospital nothing but a cold and possible phumonia but still very frighting because of her history of lung cancer. Please keep my family in your prayers tonight and say a special one for Sherrell, she is such a dear person and I don't want to have her suffer. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
RandyW Posted January 21, 2011 Share Posted January 21, 2011 hugs and prayers tonight Lillian.. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lilyjohn Posted January 21, 2011 Author Share Posted January 21, 2011 Thanks Randy. No news yet today. Waiting is hard. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Joppette Posted January 21, 2011 Share Posted January 21, 2011 wishing peace for you Lily. MI Judy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nick C Posted January 22, 2011 Share Posted January 22, 2011 I'm so sorry about your sister in law and the fact that this impending loss is bringing back so much of the other loss you've experienced. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Libby Posted January 22, 2011 Share Posted January 22, 2011 Thoughts and prayers for you Lily and your family and Sherrell. I am so sorry. Life is so unfair! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
fillise Posted January 25, 2011 Share Posted January 25, 2011 ((((Lillian)))) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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