jaminkw Posted November 10, 2011 Share Posted November 10, 2011 I wrote this on the Air and decided to move it to a more appropriate forum. I had been talking about being manic (working) for two days and not sleeping well last night. As I said, for me a manic most often means avoidance. Stan and I were in the grocery store Tuesday and along comes a woman I knew in the ftf cancer group I attended for awhile here in KW. She was a breast cancer survivor for 9 yrs and had lost her husband 3-4 yrs ago to some virulent cancer. She was a support fixture in the group. Tues she was many lbs thinner, wearing a sparkly pink ball cap. I was stunned. I asked some questions but didn't want to press for too many details. I think they had long since stopped following up with CT scans. We have the same PCP and when she did not seem to be recovering the way she and he expected from a back injury 1 1/2 yrs ago, he suggested a CT. She has cancer through her body, nothing to do but chemo and ??can't remember radiation?? I hugged her and said all the right things. Then I asked about the SO of another woman who'd come regularly to group. She came for him and herself and was positive and upbeat and the doctors were oh so encouraging. I didn't have a good feeling even back then. Now I learned "she lost him." O.k., it's out and maybe tonight I can rest and tomorrow not work myself into exhaustion. I didn't go to that group for long and in about 3 yrs time, 4 people I met there died. Three joined after me. Sometimes the losses get too heavy. I don't like to count the number of people who have died since I've been on this site--many of them dx'd around the same time as I. Of course this all stirs up my own cancer worries. I seem to be getting on top of it in my abdomen judging by how I feel. But when it went away in my chest wall, it moved to the abdominal wall. Where is it likely to go from here? I didn't say this to Becky but when I recalled for her the original location and the move to the current, with classic Becky humor she asked "what do they have to do chase it through your body til it comes out your toenail." LOL LOL LOL. When sleep was hard coming last night, I recalled those words and chuckled again. Thank you reader(s) for being there. Judy in KW Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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