Janet B Posted July 11, 2012 Share Posted July 11, 2012 Good morning everyone!! it is another beautiful day here in CT! The sky is blue, 80 degrees, and the morning glories are open. There is something about a morning glory that just makes my heart smile! I am going to do something very different than my normal routine today. I am NOT going to a beach!! I decided last night, while sitting at my second beach of the day, that I needed a day home, just enjoying my garden. So, that is my plan, a little much needed housework and then ice tea And a novel on the patio. Of course by early evening I still might end up at the beach for the sunset! I think I got about one hour of sleep last night. I didn't take any Ativan thinking I was so tired I wouldn't need it, big mistake. My scans are next week and the "scanxiety" has settled in. I thought I was past scanxiety, but I guess not! You are the only people I have told about the scans so shhhh! For 5 1/2 years I have been accompanied to every appointment by at least my husband and sister, sometimes more. I have decided from now on I want to go it alone. I have been doing my infusions alone and I find that, for me, it makes me feel stronger and more confident not to have an audience, I only have to worry about myself. We will see, my family is sneaky and determined, they may just find out and come along and of course I worry about hurting their feelings, so I might just give in and let them come. sheesh! Susan what you wrote on Monday about doing too much and how you feel bad if you can't keep up and be the mom that you have always been - wow - that could have been written by me! I KNOW my kids would be happy to shop and cook when they are home, but taking care of them is not something I am willing to give up just yet. this living with cancer is hard! I am off to get my day started ( at 11:30, sheesh I am lazy!). I hope you all have morning glory moments in your days! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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