dave3 Posted October 15, 2012 Share Posted October 15, 2012 been far to long since I have been here reading through many of the posts from friends was a bittersweet experiance...I still have some issues from my adventure with lc. chronic pain is still here and the copd makes things a bit harder for me but I plug on. My personal life has totally fallen apart...after 15yrs my wife decided that living with a cancer patient and all the baggage that comes with it wasnt worth it and tossed me out...and as a result I have lost everything I had including my pride. The divorce is in the final stages as I write this and I needed to vent a bit. Physically I am not real bad emotionally I am a complete wreck and honestly dont know what to do next. I have been pretty vocal about my journey and in talking with people came to realize that most think when your treatment is done all is well...little do they realize that its just the start of a trip that never really ends. After all this time every now and then I still hear a little whisper in the back of my mind saying "I'm still here" but for the most part I dont dwell on it or at least try not to. At my last appointment my lung function was down so I have to take another PFT and see whats going on...but enough babbling on I am at a loss for words.....my mental train just derailed again. Happy to see some old faces and saddened by those that are missing...damn disease. dave dave2 dave3..long story..lol Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Andrea Posted October 15, 2012 Share Posted October 15, 2012 Dave I am so sorry to hear about your struggles. I have a few choice words about what you described your wife but profanity is not appropriate;) I wish I had words to make you feel better. Baby steps! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dianew Posted October 15, 2012 Share Posted October 15, 2012 Dave - What a rough time you are having. I am glad you came here to vent - it's the perfect place for it. Having to deal with a divorce on top of everything else seems horribly unfair. I think most of us are so focused on getting better during treatment, that the adjustment to the new normal of our lives after LC can be really difficult and lonely. Friends and family think life is back to normal - but of course to you is sure isn't. Struggling with COPD is also very difficult emotionally. You are dealing with a lot right now, and so please remember to be kind to yourself and try to just take it a day at a time. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
RandyW Posted October 15, 2012 Share Posted October 15, 2012 that sucks !! I hope you find your inner strength and get back on the med emotionally and physically soon Dave... Let it be water under the bridge and dont look back and be sad.. Look forward and be happy and strong!! Hugs and prayers for strength Dave!!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
KatieB Posted October 16, 2012 Share Posted October 16, 2012 I'm glad you could come back here dave 1-3. I DO remember you and have thought about you often. I'm so sorry about your wife- but if she couldn't handle your disease and life with/after lung cancer, then she wasn't the one for you. I know you know that, but it doesn't make any pain or hurt go away and it doesn't make you feel better. I hope that you continue to post and that you know that we remain here for you. After 10 years there are so many members that I support that are dealing with life after cancer treatment issues- work, employment, legal and insurance issues, relationship issues and emotional issues that hang over the heads of cancer survivors their entire lives. It's better to face those together and know that you aren't alone. You aren't alone here. Many hugs and prayers for you, Dave. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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