catlady91 Posted August 31, 2020 Share Posted August 31, 2020 Although my mum hasn't officially been declared NED, her tumour is gone and the doctor said there's a tiny area which is hard to see left behind which is either cancer cells or inflammation. He said if it's cancer cells, then the immunotherapy should take care of them. The doctor said that my mum's response to treatment has been excellent and the scan was excellent. He told my mum that she should celebrate. My mum is understandably upset as she wanted to be NED, but this is her first scan since May, which showed that the tumour had reduced by half! She had a PET scan at the beginning of August which showed that the tumour was all gone apart from the tiny area, which he doesn't seem concerned about. This is her first scan since starting immunotherapy. My mum still seems to be quite depressed despite the good news. She has her good and bad days which is understandable. Today she was really negative. My brother and sister-in-law came around we were talking about summer being almost gone and next summer. My mum was like, "if I'm still alive next summer." It really upsets me that she thinks like this and she has no reason to think like this. I know that cancer is scary and there's a fear of death, but there's no evidence or anything that the doctors have said that indicate that she doesn't have much time left. The doctors are positive and have been from the start. I tell my mum that I don't want to hear such things especially as there's no evidence for it, but she just tells me off saying that I don't understand anything. I often feel alone, that nobody cares about my feelings. My mum wants me to go to therapy, but I don't want it. It's just more money and I've had a lot of therapy in my life. I feel that there's nothing that a therapist can say or do to make me feel better. When people suggest therapy, I almost take it as an offence as it's an excuse for people not to want to listen or care about me and it's just palming me off onto somebody else. Sorry for the rant. I just feel so alone sometimes and that my feelings are not valid. ColleenRae, JamesB and Jennedy 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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