hollyridge Posted March 2, 2004 Share Posted March 2, 2004 Our dear sweet Bill, the most loving man in the world was laid to rest yesterday. His visitation and funeral were exactly the way he planned and more beautiful than I imagined. Our children and grandchildren carried roses to the altar for him during the funeral Mass and two choirs combined to create the most gorgeous music performing specifically the songs he had requested. So many people loved him and admired him and they just kept flowing in to the funeral home to tell us what a wonderful man he was. We were always so very proud of him but that night we were bursting at the seams with pride. He touched so many, many peoples lives and made everyone laugh. On the ride to the cemetery our seven year old grandson was amazed that the line of cars following the limousines was so long that he could not see the end. All of the grandkids were excited to see all of the people who came to tell us how much Papa was loved. I am frightened to stay alone in the house so friends and family are taking turns being with me. They gave me some medication to help me get through the last few days but now I want to feel everything. I want to feel the intensity of the pain and sorrow that his passing has brought for all of us. I want the world to know that nothing will ever be the same again. Our kids are being very strong about this and I put on a happy face for the grandkids but when we are alone the sorrow is almost unbearable. We will never get over this. Bill sweetie, I am here and I miss you so much I can hardly breathe. That is all I am doing. . .breathing. I feel like I have died also. I am so very proud of you as I have always been. I wore the black suit and black hat and black gloves for the funeral just like you wanted. I tried to make sure everything was perfect for you. The gardenia you had Patti get me is just gorgeous. The scent is filling the house. You thought of everything and I didn't even realize you were ready to go. I'm sorry I missed the signs. It just all happened too quickly. I am trying to be strong and I am trying to be brave. I am trying to convince my broken heart to keep beating. I will hold my head up and take it one day at a time. Please keep me in your prayers sweetheart. I am not good at this. I love you and I miss you and I long for the day when you will hold me once again. You are the best husband and father and grandpa and papa in the world. You are my perfect love. Colleen Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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