Chuck K Posted September 1 Share Posted September 1 Hey everyone I last posted back in May about my ct scan showing clear and NED. I'm dealing with a lot of anxiety worrying the cancer comes back.My Oncologist told me I should be happy you're cancer free. I'm trying really hard but it just gets the best of me.Some nights i wake up feeling anxiety and panic and can't go back to sleep. I do have an appointment with a therapist on Sept 9th hopefully that helps Chuck Tom Galli 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
edivebuddy Posted September 1 Share Posted September 1 I can't offer any real help other than I do understand. While it hasn't happened in a while for the longest I'd just panic out of that blue. No real trigger just panic. Talked to my oncologist and he prefilled my xanax. Which I've only taken a few times in the last 3 years. Maybe none in the last year. I believe the more clear scans I get the easier it it . Don't think I'll ever be completely free of the fear. Livin Life and Tom Galli 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LouT Posted September 2 Share Posted September 2 Hi Chuck, What you're going through is quite normal for all of us regardless of our "stage", treatment outcome, or present state of NED. For example, the first year I went from 6-month scans to an annual it felt like I was "giving cancer a chance to regrow", but of course it wasn't true. Last week I just went through my 5-year scan and remain NED, but leading up to it and waiting for results (even though it was only a day) was enough for my "scanziety" to act up. It's a real thing that we all have to deal with. In my case I made a conscious decision that I was just going to live every day that I could as fully as I could until I can't anymore. I'm not fatalistic about it, but honest about the fact that one day I will die. But until that time I will live all that I can. Yes, I still have a day of anxiety here and there, especially around scan times, but overall I've chosen to live the life that treatment has made available to me. If you believe you need some additional help please seek it as you deserve to be able to relax and enjoy your life. I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone in this situation. Lou ChiMama, Livin Life and Tom Galli 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Chuck K Posted September 2 Author Share Posted September 2 Thanks Edivebuddy and Lou for the response today was just one of those days hopefully tomorrow is better Livin Life, Tom Galli and edivebuddy 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Livin Life Posted Wednesday at 07:04 PM Share Posted Wednesday at 07:04 PM I agree on this being normal. Important you validate your feelings which sounds like you are doing. Soooo glad you scheduled with a therapist. Hopefully a good fit and will help a lot! Glad you posted about this LouT 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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