Guest MomOTwins43 Posted May 25, 2003 Share Posted May 25, 2003 First of all, let me say right off the bat that I know I have absolutely NO RIGHT to even be posting this message. Why you ask? Because after reading some of the stories here, I'm not in too bad shape for someone with lung cancer. 1 week ago my doctor told me I am in remission, to go home and enjoy the summer and try to forget about cancer. See you in three months for repeat scans. Well, you'd think I'd be elated, right? All through treatment I kept telling myself, you will beat this, you will beat this. Now that appears I just might, I have hit rock bottom! All I can do is lay around and cry all day, praying and reading everything I can get my hands on about anxiety, depression, God, you name it! I'm on anti-depressant (wellbutrin, tried paxil, zoloft, prozac) and xanax for anxiety, I'm seeing a counselor once a week, I've tried several support groups, nothing is working (by the way, I've been doing all this between my last scans and my results, about 9 weeks now). I KNOW I HAVE NO RIGHT TO BE DEPRESSED! I could do anything I want, if I would just make myself. My husband is getting tired of it and my children are starting to notice. I keep going over the scenario of recurrence, more treatment, death, my funeral, my children alone with no mother, on and on and on. I can't take much more. I don't understand why this is happening, I'm not as bad off as some people, why can't I just stop????? I would rather be taking chemo! Did this happen to anyone else and what did you do to fight it? Veronica P.S. thanks and sorry this is so long. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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