shelliemacs Posted June 7, 2003 Share Posted June 7, 2003 just venting here so bear with me. Mom has not had a good week. She now has a bronchitis like infection. She is on antiobiotics for it and she is soooo weak. Its also the first week post head radiation and her hands still shake allot. Its also her first week post steroids and her appetite has vanished. She has chemo next week again and I am not sure she can make it through it. She cant leave the house without a wheelchair because she is so weak. She cries allot now and when I ask her whats wrong she just says she is sick of feeling this wasy, and I am paralized with fear that she is so sick of how treatment makes her feet that she may stop treatment. She has NO energy at all, she is weak and wont eat I am starting...no I am all the way in the depression and mourning hole again. She is coughing so much from the bronchitis and I am crippled thinking the cancer is running wild around her system. I cant do anything to help her which makes me feel absolutely useless as a daughter. This is absolutely the worst thing in the world watching someone suffer and not being able to do a damn thing. A so called friend told me yesturday "One way or the other you know its gonna end" I know they didn't mean it the way I took it but all I did last night was bawl and I feel sick to my stomach thinking that my mom probably wont be here this time next year. God I cant take any more of this... thanks Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Don Wood Posted June 8, 2003 Share Posted June 8, 2003 Shelly, the treatments are enouhg to make your mom tired. Don't leap to a conclusion. Keep up your hope. Don Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest DaveG Posted June 8, 2003 Share Posted June 8, 2003 Shelly: The treatments are not what causes the problems. Good cells, in addition to bad cells, are killed as well from the treatments. It is when we lose good cells that we run into problems. (As you know I am undergoing chemo as well.) If your mother's doctor is anything like mine, she is constantly getting blood test after blood test. (My last blood test showed I was anemic and had to have 2 units of whole blood transfused yesterday.) I have had days, and I am sure it has been the same with your mother, that I haven't been able to get out of the house, let alone get out of bed. It is frustrating when one has been used to being active. I have to take a nap at least once each day and sometimes once in the morning, and again late afternoon. I know this is hard on my wife. Just continue what you are doing, being there for your mother, but also let her have her space. She has to deal with this too. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
KatieB Posted June 8, 2003 Share Posted June 8, 2003 Their all right, just know that all of this is normal. I know that doesn't help you feel better, but at least you can know what to expect. My dad had the roughest time with his first chemo. Went down 30 lbs, couldn't walk unassisted and then used the wheelchair all the time. Was sick ALL of the time and never ate. Hospitalized twice with onc. visits and transfusions and iv's inbetween. Oct -Dec were the worst three months of our lives. It does and can get better!! Keep your mom's attitude positive --badger her and pester her and tell her that she needs to FIGHT. that her daughter needs her and to concentrate on getting well a little bit each day. It worked for my dad. He's doing good these days. Energy is still very LOW but he is getting out, and WALKING and not getting sick like that at all. Starting to think ahead these days...but not too too far. Still in the here and now. I know none of this makes things better for you or your mom, just know that I have been where you are and I understand your sadness and dispair. Make the most of your time together, stay positive and know that we are ALL praying for you both. I'm here if you need to talk. (((HUGS))) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mittlers Posted June 8, 2003 Share Posted June 8, 2003 Shelli, I'm so sorry that your mom is having such a bad week. My mom is also having a very hard time this week and we are very worried about her. It is very hard when you want to do something and you don't know what to do to help them feel better. Lets just hope and pray that next week will be a much better week for our mothers. God Bless, Susan M. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kimblanchard Posted June 8, 2003 Share Posted June 8, 2003 Shellie Don't give up yet. I have also had a very rough past few weeks, first I got a horrible intestinal infection and then bronchitis, I know both of these things had nothing to do with the cancer because my husband and my son also got them and they don't have cancer. Needless to say they really ran me down because I am getting chemo so I did not do much at all. Just try and encourage her and hang in there. The crying spells go along with not feeling up to par and being on chemo. I know its hard on you, my daughter cries when she knows I am not feeling well, I have gotten so I try to hide it from her because I don't want to cause her pain but I know its just because she loves me. You sound like a wonderful daughter, try to think positive and you and your mom will be in my prayers Bess B Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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