Tami Posted September 20, 2004 Share Posted September 20, 2004 I'd like to ask for prayers. Not specifically cancer related but just problems dealing with life, I'm so tired of everything. I've taken on an additional job which now gives me about 80 hrs a week. It's really difficult juggling all that time at work along with 3 kids, pets and a house. I recently got married to a man I've been dating about 6 yrs. He is in his early 40's never married before... just lived with his mother who pretty much did everything for him. I just can't keep up. He likes big meals and I try to do his laundry and iron everything but "nothing smells the same as when his mother did it." He leaves every Sunday and goes to his mothers to mow the lawn and so things for her around the house she cooks him lunch and supper and he comes home in the evening. In the meantime I'm working at my second job and my kids fend for themselves for dinner. He is constantly upset over bills etc. because he's never had to pay for anything besides his vehicle payment-so he's not used to having to keep track of checks or ATM withdraws. I'm trying so hard to keep up with everything but I'm failing as a wife, mother, employee etc. My "real job" which pays the bills (I make more than my husband) has become increasingly difficult to the point where I don't sleep at night and I'm sick to my stomach in the mornings because I hate coming in so much. My position has changed due to restructing and it is EXTREMELY stressful and I hate it. I'd give anything to be able to apply for a less stressful job but it would pay less than what I'm making now and my husband will not allow that. My husband is angry with me because he say's I'm always miserable and tired and no fun anymore. He doesn't even worry about it anymore. My kids are stressing about middle school and I'm not there at night to help them with their homework, my daughter was just diagnosed with Mono on Friday and we were at the emergency room on sunday because she's so sick. That made me late for my second job and they were on me because I wasn't there to do my shift ( i did call them but we just don't have enough staff so no one could come in) I hurried as quickly as I could but I just can't seem to keep up with it all. I'm really worried I'm going to end up with mono and get very sick. I have no idea how I will be able to get things done if I get sick. I just hate living this way.. I feel blessed to be in a NED state right now. I've prayed for it for so long but I'm afraid it won't last and if I think that this is the end of my life I should be at least enjoying it a little don't you think?? I'm just so horribly depressed and I feel like I can no longer cope with things. Please pray that I somehow find strength and wisdom. Thanks- Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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