[Resentful caregiver]

some of it is the cancer i think talking per se.. Not him especially the bad stuff you refer to. Is this something new since it spread to the brain? How are treatments working? IS CyberKnife an option? guys are different they dont like to talk about their medical condition. I think we see it a s a sign of weakness that there is something wrong with us. we are always taught to be the strong silent warriors and never show fear or emotion all too often. That gets us in trouble. we liek to maintain our pride and dignity and not say there is something wrong with us !!![/quote

Hi its Cindy, I am trying to work and be home all at the same time!!

But my daughter is coming home on Saturday to help me out.

Gary going for a CT tomorrow and we will find out if the chemo is working or not.

No he doesnt talk, he is in more pain everyday. I have the patches on his back up to a 100 and now they have him on Oxtcodone. His ankles and feet are swollen really bad.

We went to the doctors last week, and they want to drop the steroids, but I think I have the steroids it figured out where he can sit up and talk with out falling asleep like a rag doll. He is terminal, and I am trying to make him happy. I havent told him how sick he is, ecause I dont want him scared, but after the CT we may have to go there.

I am told I am in denial, but mircles do happen right?

Thanks for the vent, good thoughts and prayers to all of you.

Cindy

[Resentful caregiver]

Hi my name is Cindy, and I just found out my husband has stage 4 cancer that has gone to his brain. I am confused, because I am trying so hard to talk to my husband and be there for him. But he wont talk to me and when he does its not nice.

He was diagnoised Sept 10, 2012... He had 10 days of radiation to his head, and is on his third treatment of chemo. He doesnt eat, but has put on allot of weight, which I think are the steroids.

But what I like to ask is I feel guilty, that I am not doing more?

I had 2 opnions, and he has had everything you could imagine done to him. I feel why go to another Cancer Center, just to have them poke him again, and tell us the same results.

I am sad, and confused and would appreciate any input here to help me help my husbad.

Thank you,Cindy