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I Don't Want to Know

kathe2024

Entry posted by kathe2024 in My Lung Cancer Journey

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After receiving some good news on my brain and liver MRIs (no met), I started treatment a couple of weeks ago.  While I am not a candidate for surgery or radiation at this point, I remain at Stage III C, NSCLC. They have started me with four cycles of weekly chemotherapy, as well as immunotherapy every 3 weeks. I will complete my first three-week cycle this coming week. So far, I am feeling pretty good. Just tired.

I decided pretty much from the get-go that I did not want to know my prognosis. I have not asked my oncologist and he has not told me. I have erased what I have read online from my mind and I refuse to google anything more.  Here’s why.  It has been over twenty years since my mom died of pancreatic cancer. The doctors gave her 3 months to live, but she survived nearly two years. It was her refusal to give up hope and succumb to negative outcomes that helped her extend her life. And I am grateful for the extra time I had with her.  If I’m focused on a deadline of when I might die, I could easily lose hope.  So I’m not going there.

 I have decided to live and appreciate each day, regardless of how much time I have.  And that means being vigilant about my attitude and everything I do. I intend to focus on living.

When I look around at all the survivors who have come before me, I am in awe. You give me hope and strength.

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LouT

LouT 3,293

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Kathe,

Thanks for the thoughts.  Your headset is the right one for a survivor and I believe that strong and positive attitude will continue to play a role in your ongoing journey with our disease.  Tom's "Stay the Course" is exactly the right advice.

Lou

laurie2020

laurie2020 58

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Hi Kathy. I am aligned with your belief. I am a 3 year survivor of stage 4 metastisized Lung Cancer and I continue to stay off the internet and away from many who try to pull me through the path they might take if they were in my shoes or if they may be against conventional treatment. I listen to many but follow my heart to choose from what my Oncologist and ND advise for me treatment wise. Stay strong and true to yourself and yes off the internet and you will do well. I choose to pray alot as many have been answered.   Love and strength

Laurie

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