Hi Michelle,
Thank you for your reply. My husband isn't actually in care at present. The Hospice group come to his home and make decisions based on what they see and what he/I tell them. While it's 'early days' on the morphine thus far, none of us know how long he has, however the Dr's have said they can do no more for him, so it is just palliative care from here on in. I do my best to keep it all going but every now and then it just kicks in a bit and for the two times I've had my melt-downs, I've been told by other members of the family and people I fellowship with that I musn't show my feelings in front of him. I can't quite understand this because my husband and I know each other quite well and although, I am strong most of the time, he knows that this gets to me now and then too. Anyway, I feel as if I'm rambling now, so sorry about that, and talk again soon. Thank you once again.