Today, she was supposed to go in to start her chemo, when she got there, she told the dr nevermind and decided against it. When my mom was first diagnosed 2 years ago, she was very healthy and active, aside from the obvious cancer. This time is different. She is not strong. She has lost alot of her mobility. She also forgets alot. She can no longer drive. She is VERY weak, like she can't get herself out the bathtub with out assistance. Our first thought was that it was in her brain, they did a scan and its not. Dr told us that the problems she is having is from the cancer being in her adrenal glands and that even with Chemo, she would never regain the strength she once had. The chemo she was going to start my mom on is (forgive the spelling, I will probably butcher this) topecan, or something like that...I have it written down, but its in the car and its late, will go get it in the morning...(mom lives 2 hrs from me, the driving back and forth is harsh)...I think the reason she is not wanting the chemo is she is afraid that she is not going to be strong enough to handle it. Dr seems to think that could be a possibility. I just think that if the dr thought there was hope she would be more persistant in my mom going for the chemo. Its not that we are giving up hope, its a quality of life over quantity of life. I am going to research the chemo in question and hopefully my mom can make a better informed decision from that. Then to top it off today, My hubby, my 4 yr old daughter, and I have the flu. This has been a day from hell and I am ready for it to be over....get up and try again tomorrow..
Oh, and I did, again, beg my mom to get 2nd opinion....she said no, she just wants to leave we enough alone and live out the rest of her days in peace...she said she has 5 daughters and 12 grand children she wants to enjoy some time with before God calls her home....
So, as hard as it may be, I will accept whatever decision she makes and but it in God's hands...I know that he will make sure that the right decisions are made....